Wednesday, February 28, 2007
Been reading my older posts & came across 1 about the dream I had about aliens & that MIB guy. Just want to continue the story. Funny how I can still remember it.
I went back up uising the same lift, wanted to walk out untill saw the alien I saw earlier right in front of the lift. I dodged & ran as fast as my legs could carry me. Ran into the black MIB guy & he took out his gun to shoot the alien. His white partner appeared out of nowhere & started shooting the alien as well.
Cant remember what happen next but I was standing somewhere behind thoses guys watching them in action. Suddenly, another alien appeared. It was this close to one of the MIB guys. It then attacked me. Don't know what I did, but I escaped & left the alien. MIB guys took me to their special black car.
They took me to their control station with the other MIB agents. Walked into a hallway where I could see many lockers. That's because I remembered the last scene in the latest MIB movie. Seeing the aliens in the locker you know.
Somehow I ran away to get to my parents. I felt that I needed to warn them about the aliens.
It's as if people knew those aliens exist. Just that those aliens have only been using their own life. The lift on the train track @ the middle platform. & I have no idea why am I still living in an underground hotel just next to those alieans. Funny how the story goes.
I went to my mum's shop but saw her locked to the wall behind the counter. She was shivering & I could see that the baby alien was already ready to tear out from her body. Went to dad's shop but same thing happened to him. Went up to him to tell him how I love him. Went back to mum's shop to tell her the same thing. Took some sort of gun that sprays fire. Burned the two shops.
Both MIB guys came looking for me, saw me in front of the burning shops. Watched me from their car. "We need to do something", I said. They nodded their heads & took me to the control station where I was safe.
From the camera point of view, I saw many soldiers running towards the alien's lift. 4 hid behind the lift, one use some kind of a board to cover himself as aliens don't see very well and he covers so the aliens don't like sence his presence. Like he was invisible to them like that. One more was acting as bait way behind that guy with the board. Everyone was tense. 4 soldiers who were behind the lift was carrying some equipment.
An alien went out from the lift. Saw the bait & walked straight to him. Guy with board was given instructions as board could only protect him from one side. As the alien walk pass him, he had to turn his board a to the right a little at a time.
As alien is halfway to the bait, the 4 guys quickly got to work. Did something to the aliens lift. Oh i remember! They make it invisible to the aliens. Another alien went out of the lift. Before that there was the "ting" sound so the 4 guys hid behind the lift.
That alien that just came out like never saw the guy with the board & walked towards the previous alien. 4 guys went to work again. Both aliens like talk to each other in their language then head back for the lift. But 4 guys did their work finish & hid behind the lift so aliens couldn't see the lift. Aliens went up to the platform wanting to take the lift I always use but got killed by other soldiers who were waiting for them.
One more alien went out of its lift. Four guys quietly went out of that position to the safe side without the alien noticing. Alien saw bait & went towards it. Guy with board went to the safe side & then other soldiers killed the alien before it could reach bait.
The End. Love is a great thing
If only you knew..
Published at 12:18 PM
That ass bitchty face-full-of-pimples maid. I know you are home sick want to see your dear son & your darling husband but you don't have to take it out on my baby sister Rawiyah right? Stupid bitch.
Scold one time enough what then you still must open you stupid mouth to shout at her some more. Your voice not that loud anyway so what for waste your energy. You have been doing that everyday so you should know by now that your scolding will not make her do what you want her to. So shut the fuck up. Love is a great thing
If only you knew..
Published at 11:12 AM
So what are my plans for the day? Planning to blog the whole day so you might be just reading the very first of the many, at most ten, posts of the day. Changing many settngs & my templates loads of times but nothing seem to work you see.
Tried alligning all my words to the center but didn't work. Either my codes are wrong or my computer is too damn slow. Mak wants to buy another computer. She wants 3 computers in this house. She's mad! Not literally mad. I mean, having one is enough to give me a headache. With all those upgrading programs and stuff. Learing IT in school doesn't seem to change my interest towards technology.
Okay I wanted to change the song I was listening to & it made it clear to me that my computer is damn too slow and going to be spoiled very very soon. Read my horoscope for the day & it said that my luck is going to change to the opposite direction. Not that I believe in it. Some of the days I read other horoscopes & they were actually true. In a sense that, lioness always say this whenever she talks or gossips about someone, it really did happen to me on that particular day itself.
Anyway, I'd rather she buy me a laptop so I won't have to fight with Ain over the computer again. But I didn't tell her that. Afraid she would bring the subject up again. What subject? Well, you know, Prison Pops ot paying her & got his stupid suspension meaning he won't be paying her for three whole months which sucks big time as now that the holidays are coming money is the most important thing and now that Rawiyah is in a very good but way too expensive sucky christian school Mak has to cough up more than ever and also that face-full-of-pimples maid wants to go home to her family for two months if I'm not wrong & according to the contract Mak has to pay for all her flight trips to and forth which I think is a stupid thing but very fair as maids ain't rich when they come to work here so they need all the financial support they can get.
Boy was I a chatterbox. Longest sentence ever. But not long anough though. There were many more facts that I left out. But that should be enough for now. I type fast but noisy. Like Lioness laways does. I can type quietly but it won't be as fast. Why am I always comparing myself with her? Oh ya. Yesterday she was such an Ah Lian, Lioness. Called her Ah Lian Lioness. Lioness already fierce but adding Ah Lian to that. Boy was she nasty. Hahah.
Actually not that nasty. Just that she said oi instead oh hey or hi then got straight to the point by asking me some questions. So straightforward. So I kind of imagined the tone of voice if she had said it then said she was like Ah lian. Very kasar type you know. She scolded me but I heck care. A better version of don't give a damn. Heheh. Love is a great thing
If only you knew..
Published at 10:01 AM
Tuesday, February 27, 20072nd post of the day. Bored that's why. In room downstairs listening to Invisible by Clay Aiken. Too bad I have not much new photos of him. Don't even have his latest album. Which I definitely plan to buy once I have saved enough. That reminds me, going up to my room later to count out my savings. The last time I counted, it was around $16. If only it was $160 or better yet $1600. Then I will treat all my friends to pizza and buy the most precious gift any daughter could ever give to her mother for Mak.
Big dreams. Fat hope. Dream on girl. Ok, I will. Darn. Thought he was online. Now offline. Wanted to ask him whether there will be any outing this weekend. Because I need to celebrate the end of my 1st year in TP.
Just remembered. There were many dreams I dreamt few nights ago but forgot to tell you. It's too late now. can't remember anything about them. I know this though. All my dreams were as if I was really doing it. I mean, I was in this house doing things I would nowmally, or not, do. Like taking a bath after waking up early in the morning. It's vague but I remembered I did somthing grose that I would not do in real life. I did that as if I normally do that in real life but actually I don't. The problem is I can't remember what.
Had another dream yesterday night. Think it was yesterday night. Or was it? Nevermind. Anyway, I dreamt that I woke up from bed and... Oh gosh. Don't tell me I forgotten that one too. Oh yes I have. Forgot. Sorry. Bad memory. Very bad memory.
Love his voice. Nice. Not to high pitch & not too deep. Just right. Still have his poster from two or a year ago. Can't really remember. So charming, to me. If only I have his photo. But thing is, if he ever comes to Singapore for a tour or concert or whatever, I will not see him. No matter how close he is. Why?
Same like last time with Pretty. I have the feeling that he is very highly respected and a very big man so I will always feel that I will not be seen as important to him & stay away from him. Like nerds hang out with nerds, something like that. But I'm not a nerd. Nope, I'm not.
Lets move on shall we? Told you I found my brother & twin sister. All of them have boyfriends. Then I figured I didn't want to be Michelle Sofie Sonia anymore. I wanted to be the other rtwin sister. They call me Peri. Like I switch souls, character, whatever.
Then I bacame the producer, directer, composer, song writer for the MP'S. Thought of changing group mane you know. As now there are more people involved. By the way, we achieved a guiness world record of being the largest mixed sex band in the world. We had, lets see, 1..2..3..9 people I guess. How many people does the pussycat dolls have? Doesn't matter. They don't belong in our world.
We are a special band. We do everything. Sarah is the make-up & the costume person. Patty is in charge of the money things. Micheal takes care of all our instruments. Joe & Katie, did I mention them? In case I didn't, Joe Potter is Patty's younger brother. He had a crush on Michelle last time. Got over it & got a girl of his own now. We call her sissy. Because she's like spoilt bratt & we hated her. But got used to her over time. Her name is Katie Underwood.
Anyway, they are the MC's for everything. All evnts that we organize you will always see them cracking jokes with the audience. They are famous for their original jokes. Who else? C.K is the DJ. He's in charge of all our records, the electronic stuff except the electrical instruments, as Micheal takes care of that. Kamal Jamal does the composing with me. He's the intepreter. I, Peri, likes to compose many songs of different languages. Our band is0way famous for that. Then he helps me as he studied more than 20 languages in his school days. He's so popular all over the world because of that.
That should be enough for taday. No it ain't. It's way more than enough. Hahah. Love is a great thing
If only you knew..
Published at 8:51 PM
Love the way my cBox turned out to be. It's very hard trying to read yellow words in a white background. Hopefully I won't make too many mistakes here. At least it looks good on a black background.
Met Sexy @ bus stop. Man was she early today. And boy was Yan Chen way too late. Hahah. Anyway we went to eat @ KFC 1st then started studying while waiting for the rest. Then Pretty, Lioness & Pepper came. Yan Chen, as I mentioned earlier, came last. We moved on to school where we met Penguin.
She had a new hairstyle so I didn't recognise her from afar. Only when she looked up & I saw her face then I knew it was her. Sat at the bench outside till around 2.20 then I went down to the 4th floor to my exam class. Paper ain't bad, just I didn't really memorise terms like the protocols & stuff. You should know, I hate memorising.
During secondary schoolI hated science because it involves a lot of memorising. I like history though as I find it interesting. But the female teacher made it sound so boring like that math lecturer. So sad, no wonder I failed my combined humanities.
I left the exam room an hour later and slept in front of room 20 @ level 6. Then the security guard came & kidnapped me. Took me home & asked my parents for ransom money. Hahah. Not funny :( He asked me to leave that place as no one was allowed to wait for their friends there. I went to the ladies to wash my hands. Went out & saw Lionedd. Sexy & Mango came little later. Waited for Penguin & Pepper then went out.
I followed Liness to TM then CS. Wanted to purchse something but it wasn't there. Oh it was sad. So we window shop a while. Bought bubble tea & some oily stuff from Old Chinky. Then chat about my past & how our parents do it. You know, tat thing they do to get babies. Dirty topic I know. But we were like so engrosed in it. Then we decided to do it too so booked a room in the nearest hotel & slept there. Hah, what a night.
Haha. Just kidding people. Man would Lioness kill me if she knew this. Hahah. Just couldn't help myself. My friends all know how dirty minded I am. Oh boy.
Yesterday I felt a really great desperation to laugh. Kept telling myself I need to laugh. I am too stressed up I need to laugh. Not those fake laughs where someone tells you a lame joke & u giggle a bit in order to show you were listening. Like Pepper always do. Her jokes are damn lame. Sometimes she laughs so much but I don't think it's even funny. not at all girl. You need to work on that humour of yours. I'm telling you because if you have a boyfriend next time, you need to entertain him. You know relationships are boring without laughter and adventure. If your lame are just as lame as now, I think by the time you guys get married, he will be bored listening to you talk. He will definitely ask you one day where you inherit your humour ffrom. Your parents are going to be so ashamed of you. Oh so sad. Love is a great thing
If only you knew..
Published at 7:40 PM
Early morning I woke up today. Heard people outside doing the fogging thing. To get rid of pests you know. Smelly & very poisonous for us too. Could kill a baby in direct contact. So sad had to change with all the windows closed. The face-full-of-pimples maid however did nothing. Oh no! Forgot to check Mak's bedroom. Rawiyah's in there! but the window there is always close. So no need to worry there. The window downstairs, the one facing the park, was wide open. Could tell because of the smell from my room. I went down to close it.
No breakfast today as usual. Yesterday my breakfast was a papaya serving Yan Chen bought for me. He's not that good, I asked him to. He's not the kind of gentlemen I hoped he was. Sad isn't it.
Later meeting my friends @ the bus stop in front of school, or was it opposite? I will just stay @ the bus stop I will be alighting, the opposite one. Then wait for them, hopefully I won't be too early & hope they won't be late at all.
Wore make-up. Why? Just felt like doing so. Woke up too early you see so nothing better to do than just being vain & make yourself up nicely. Think I overdone it though. Decreased the number of strokes I use for my eye shadows. Much thicker & more obvious blucher but lesser powder. Still feel as though my make-up is 3 inches from the surface of my face.
Eyes doesn't hurt as bad as yesterday. Was watching television & planned to watch rubbish for 1 hour till my favourite show starts, E.R. There's this guy in the show that I find very charming. He also acted in a movie called Enough. Heard of it? I don't quite like the movie eventhough it stars J.Lo. It's about family crisis between the mother & the husband. She killed him in the end. Self defence as you can say. Reminds me of my dream. Mak killed Prison Pops. If only it was true. Just kidding!
Anyway, he's in that doctor show & I just love his character. His taste of woman ain't good though. he likes this nurse, trainee nurse I think. She ain't pretty nor anything close to that, to me at least.
Will be eating lunch in KFC with friends then study somewhere if not KFC. Have my favourite subject, DCNK paper @ 2.30 to 4.30. Hopefully I will leave earlier. Once all the questions are answered & I am satisfied with what I wrote, I will just leave & not think about it any longer. Hate to dwell in things you never know the result.
Wish me luck people! Oh, and you have to wait quite long time for the cbox to come as I bought it straight from New Zealand. Yup! Going to have it exported from there. So might take some time. Gee, I'd love to go there & pick a really nice 1 myself. But my adviser, Papaya, says to trust her. Hope it will turn out good. Chao! Love is a great thing
If only you knew..
Published at 10:21 AM
Monday, February 26, 2007
Oh my gosh!!! I love my new blog skin. Eventhough I have told many people I hate black, but it's truly wonderfully perfectly amazing! It's beautiful. Never have I seen before such a wonderful skin in my entire lifetime! Maybe that's because I am pretty new in this blogging thing.
Took around many tiring, frustrating, weird but good days to finally find one skin that suits my liking. The only problem I had was that I could not upload my songs properly and had to re-do the whole thing again as I could not see my flowers. It was all black & blank. Finally, I got it figured out. My computer was as slow as a tortoise. Hahah! Love is a great thing
If only you knew..
Published at 11:03 PM
Friday, February 23, 2007Never taking exams seriously. Now see what happens. Easy paper, but because AI never studied for it, I will probably flunk it. Everyone says don't worry, I know you can do it". But they don't know me that well. Not well enough.
I am a lazy bump who hates her father most of the time but still loves him as her dear father. I am getting more ashamed of my looks and especially my small-sized body as days go by. I am known to be a quiet girl who doesn't know how to express her feelings to my mother. I hate as much as I love many things. I am sensitive in certain situations. I love cursing @ people & scoldiong my sisters unecessarily whenever I am in a bad mood. I am selfish and inconsiderate. I have no initiative most of the time & I have no talent in almost everything.
Feeling very pressurised now that exams are finally here. Can't wait for it to be ober then I can have the time of my life before I die. No I'm not dying. I'm just saying that, nevermind. I feel grateful when I see people who are misfortunate and less rich than me. but I regret encouraging Mak to remarry & live so far away from the house I had felt so happy living in it. Heck care my english! It's time I tell you the whole truth & nothing but the truth.
Currently, I feel that I have so such friends that I can really share my feelings with. That's why that day I urge myself to sign up on Love Happens and stuff. I feel the urge to want a boy in my life whom i can love and share all my feelings with. It's not the critical time now to have such people in my life but who do I turn to whent he time comes? You may be wondering why I'm making such a big of a deal out of this.
Well, last time my parents argued everynight & finally had their divorce. Then single parenting for Mak wasn't at all easy. There was also my new born sister to deal with. And also Prison Pop didn't make things any better for the whole family. Mak was strong. Those were the times when I cried everynight. I had no one to talk to. I couldn't tell Mak. I love her & didn't want to make her worry. Always put a straight & strong face in front of her. Little does she know that I was in depression. My grades showed. The teachers kept telling me to buck up. They never, not once asked me how I was doing @ home. As if they don't care.
That's why I was quiet all the time. I kept it all inside of me. And my friends back then, they never knew either. Didn't felt close enough to them to tell. Catherine was aving her own dreams. I was only there for her when she needs support. Because those idiotic classmates of mine thinks she's a wierdo just because she always scores the highest & they were certainly jealous of her. Hah! The moment the O' level results were announced, that showed them who was the better one. Shame on them.
Chicken and her godsister weren't a help at all either. They had their own problems & I always got stuck in the middle. The lightbulb you can say. Towards the end though I tried several time to tell her, but she was feeling depressed. I didn't think so. She was just brought up differently & I didn't understand her problems. I was just there as a listening ear.
So what now? Who do I go to when I need someone? Who do I call when I'm on the verge of tears? Who do I see to ave a warm, friendly hug? Who? Tell me who? No one. No one at all. One year of knowing my poly friends ain't enough to have that feeling of true friendship, nomatter how honest they are. Love is a great thing
If only you knew..
Published at 9:39 PM
Thursday, February 22, 2007The more I see it the more I want to cry. The more I read the more I want to kill the both of them. The more I stare into it the more I regret. I really regret. I regret leaving ADSS & joining CBSS. I learnt nothing valuable to me there. Nothing, nothing at all. Sure I made friends & got to keep 1. But like I said before, we are drifting apart. She has other people to take care of her. I don't need her & she doesn't need me.
There was no feeling @ first. Just being myself & I'm the type that put friends first before self. I did that. Because of that, I had the feeling. I tried, tried real hard to let it go, ignore it, convert it to other feelings, but unsuccessful. Now I still have it. Then you see what happens, they got back together. Oh boy. Not jealous no. Well, maybe a little. But more towards hatred. Not because it's not me there, nope. Can't tell you why. Shhh... It's a secret. Love is a great thing
If only you knew..
Published at 9:17 PM
Wednesday, February 21, 2007Today woke up quite early, got dressed with my new accessories & make-up. Took bus 34 to Changi Airport terminal 1 so had to take the sky train to terminal 2. Met Sexy legs there. Went walking around looking for 3-pin plugs & a nice spot to settle down. Sat down at Burger King waiting for Lioness. Chatted & tried to study a while, then moved to Mac Donalds. Ate, study & talked crap there. Pepper came after 3pm.
We were suppose to meet @ 12 noon @ Changi mrt, I took bus so had to meet Sexy Legs who was the only one on time other than me @ sky train station @ terminal 2. Lioness was an hour late I think. But Pepper. Woo. That Pepper. You can never make her change her attitude. Her ugly habit. Oh no. Bad girl. I tried to apply some CMSK1 skills. I learnt that to make sure your friend doesn't come late all the time, you have to enforce some rules. I tried but it failed. Pepper owes Sexy Legs, Lioness & me lunch. I'm very serious about this. We were being too lenion to her just now.
Did I spell that correctly? Oh gosh. Nevermind.
I tried to explain to them she was a very manja girl. They still don't understand the meaning. Guess have to ask Pretty or Banana to explain to them. I hate manja people to tell you the truth. But since she & chicken are already my friends, I just have to accept them the way they are. Overall, she is a good friend. No one is perfect.
We all took the train. Sexy Legs drop off 1st. Then Pepper then Lioness & me went to Bugis. Bought birthday bag for Banana. Went home straight after that. Didn't want anymore scolding & nagging from Mak.
Yesterday woke up quite early too. Ate hotcakes Mak bought from Mac Donalds. Oh boy. Getting fatter & heavier each day. I gained 3kg over the holidays. This is bad. So bad. Anyway, was in a bad mood as was told to do some housework. I hate doing housework. If my friends there then I will be happy to do it as there is a purpose for me at least. But the face-full-of-pimples maid was @ home. Why can't she do it? Lazy me I know. Maid ain't meant to do everything, I know. I am being very unfair to her. I know, I know. Tell me something I don't know.
Where was I? Oh ya. At 2.30pm, got ready & went out to meet Emily @ Orchard mrt. I was late. Heheh. Walked around. Many shops were closed so it wasn't that much fun. Bought some chicken wrap @ Old Chunky. Took a bus ride to Bugis. Many shops there were closed as well. Bought a new bracelet for myself. Oh, before going there, we ate at KFC @ Orchard. Boy, was I stuffed!
The day before that, woke up the earliest not counting the face-full-of-pimples maid. Woke the rest up as well, got ready, help them pack, went into the car & reached the Changi beach feeling rather sleepy & restless. Too crowded there. Even @ the very end of the long stretch of the beach. Too many Malay families think alike. So sad one family couldn't find a spot to settle down. Mak kept saying, "Kesian dorang." Like duh!
Rain went down heavily in the late afternoon, everyone and I mean everyone like 4 aunties (one of them 8 months pregnant), 4 uncles, 4 cousins, my 2 sisters, my step-father, Mak, 4 maids & me were all so drenched wet & shivering like mad. At least we didn't go mad. Haha.
Went to Cik Lina's house, ate the rest of the satay, went home.
Day before that. nothing happened. Day before that day, can't remember what happened. Day before that day, went out with Emily I think. Love is a great thing
If only you knew..
Published at 9:12 PM
Saturday, February 17, 2007I'm really not in a good mood right now. Really slacking & rotting & dying @ home. In the mornign woke up to a bright & beautiful sunny day. Shampooed & conditioned my hair, wore one of my best clothes & put on make-up even. Then Mak said someone just died in the early morning. She & Ayah wanted to go do their prayers there so the children had to wait @ home. The Useless-full-of-pimples (hodoh) maid went out on a Chinese New Year holiday.
Stupid Chinese New Year. All my friends ever think about is getting more money. All the chinese old folks think about is polluting the environment, including our house. Damn them! I went down to the living room with my breakfast ready and guess what I saw. A whole bunch of stupid fucking paper dust was all over the dining table & the gard damn floor! Stupid chinese people! Don't they know the gard damn safety of the people here?! Rawiyah has asthma for goodness sakes! You want her to die?! Fuck you!
Ok calm down Papaya, calm down. Breathe in & out, in & out. Ok, I'm calm.
Thought after they pray for the dead we will go out to a kenduri & then Malaysia. It would be more fun than satying @ home all day long. But no! "Change of plans", she says. Ayah said it would be best for us not to travel to Johor as all the shops will be closed because of the gard damn Chinese fucking New Year. So they will go Johor by them two selves leaving us children to rot @ home. When they get home we will go kenduri & then rot @ home again.
I was of course disappointed & showed my pretty sucking face. Whenever I'm in a down mood. I will do things I would have not done otherwise. I cleaned up the house, washed the dishes, shouted @ Rawiyah many times, talked to myself, listened to the radio blasting out loud & sat down on the dining table posing like a model.
Ain cried yesterday. I came home & wanted to enter our room but heard Ain whom I thought was the Useless-full-of-pimples maid sobbing & talking to herself. Like what I used to do every night. Couldn't hear what she was saying though as she sobbed a lot so her words were very muffled up. I went down to eat my dinner I had to buy myself as I know the Useless-full-of-pimples maid wouldn't get my message nomatter how many times I told her I want to eat @ home.
Anyway, I got a confirmation it was Ain when I saw the Useless-full-of-pimples maid came out of nowhere. Mak came home & I told her. Told Rawiyah 1st then she mentioned she saw Ain cried last time while tearing a piece of paper. After quite sometime then Mak, Rawiyah, Ain & I gathered in one corner of the room & talked about her problems. Her problems that night was the same problems as mine.
We moved to Ain's very first home @ Woodlands st 83, Blk 860 #09-something. Can't tell you the exact now can I? Secret. Ain's school & mine were @ Admiralty Primary School. Rawiyah wasn't even born. We didn't understand the situation as we were still young. Prison Pops & Mak were not so newly married. We, as in Ain & I, were the happiest ever. In all our lives, that was the time we were the happiest. Prison Pops were alwasy @ home as he never liked working. Kept hopping all his jobs, taking & quiting that sort.
That was the reason why he was always home for us girls. We played with him everyday all day long after school & during the holidays we went out for trips to shopping malls and such. When outside, I kept looking at my parents. They always hold hands & looked so happy to me. Of course, I didn't know Mak wasn't at all happy. I was too young & stupid to see anything else except for happiness.
Ain & I took Ninja-do classes at some nights and we got all the way to green belts. Ain was a little slower than me. I was among the faster learners there as I was the among the eldest in the class. I almost got to brown belt. I was so close to it. I wanted to achieve black belt. Have seen young kids getting black belts in other classes. I had big dreams. I had. Until one day, one day before the Ninja-do examination, Mak made us stop going for our classes. I didn't know why. I wasn't that disappointed. Now I know, Mak coudn't afford to pay for the exam fees. It was damn expensive for her. She was the only one working. Like I said, Prison Pops was lazy as a pig in hell.
But we were happy, so very happy. Ain missed those days. & so did I. I still do. Yes I still do.
But happiness doesn't last forever. You of all should know that by now. As days go by Mak started being depressed, I became as lazy as Prison Pops. Because he was almost always @ home & as his child, I took him as my model, my mentor. I followed his footsteps. I was damn lazy. Never did my homework. As Mak explained yesterday night, whenever I got a big red egg on my test peper, I would say, "It's ok. Nothing to worry about." I was calm, never worry about school. Was a slacker. Didn't do well in Primary 1 & 2. Because of that, can say because of me, parents started argueing every single day.
Prison Pops was never concerned for my results, Mak kept scolding him for not doing anything. He was always @ home but never bothered to teach me or anything. She had to do all the work. That was when she started using the rotan. Every Friday I had spelling & alwasy failed it. So every night, Mak would teach me after work. Every wrong I do she would hit me with the rotan.
Painful yea. Still remember crying everynight when got hit by it.
Also, I have a problem with saving money. Everyday, I will buy things in the bookshop. Pens & pencils & nice little notebooks. Everynight, Mak needed to check every little pocket in my school bag to see if I bought anything unecessary. Everytime, I do, she scolds me, then scolds Prison Pops. Then they start argueing and I would stand there crying. It was horrible knowing you are the cause for all this mishaps.
Day by day the argueing got worse. Ain & I would always be the witnesses & then hide in our room to cry ourselves to sleep. Sometimes, the police would come and try to sort the situation out. i think because the neighbors complained that the house was noisy & maybe they were worried for us kids. We got used to it by then. When the police came, we would stand one corner and watch the whole drama thing.
Will stop here for now. Next time then tell you about how Prison Pops got real bad. Chao! Love is a great thing
If only you knew..
Published at 2:15 PM
Thursday, February 15, 2007Fuck sia! Typed a lot then gone. Actually I learn a lot from tv shows that no data is completely erased from any computer. There is a way to get it back. But I'm no fucking expert! What the fuck! Stupid internet connection! Stupid blogger website! Stupid computer! Stupid STUpid STUPID I tell you!
No way am I repeating what I have released just now. All my anger, all the frustration, all the curses towards my maid. Most of all, ya most of all, all the happy anf funny events that happened. All the good feelings I have described before. If I tell you again it will never be the same. The feeling ain't there anymore. It's gone.
My blog is like my pensieve. Posting my blog is like taking one strip of the most recent memory in my brain & let it flow into the computer screen.
Stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupidstupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid. Love is a great thing
If only you knew..
Published at 9:35 PM
Yesterday was valentine's day. It turned out to be one of the crackiest days of my life. All thanks to the very one and only, the most cutest, shortest -__-, lamest, most gong-gong, stupidest of all me -.-"". Hahah. Cracking myself up.
Waiting for time to pass by not too fast & not too slow. Waiting inside favourite lab for my friends to end their lesson and come look for me. So I can convince Lioness do go on a second date. This time, under the moonlight, where I can only see her beautiful face anf nice sexy body figure.
Yesterday I cracked one of the lamest jokes of all. To Chicken, Cow Shit, Lioness & Sexy Legs.
Want to tell you but need to pull a few strings first. Oh no. Think I told them in many more than one person conversation so will not be able to retrieve the things my friends and I talked about. Oh, so sad.
Nomatter, will still tell you the jokes later. Now I need finish up my script and make a few more changes to make it perfect. Later alligator!
Love is a great thing
If only you knew..
Published at 10:43 AM
Wednesday, February 14, 2007hmm..hi hi ppl...tis is pea pea here...wahahahahaha...papaya ask mi 2 blog on her behalf...she went 4 her cmsk 1 convo thingy...
oh...ppl u noe...papaya juz had a buffet lunch @ engineerin sch juz nw...haha..so funny...we sae she go seduce e uncle den e uncle gif her a lot...it's reali a big portion...den she gif mi scold her stupid...coz eat buffet where gt ppl tak so much veggie 1...yesterdae gif mi scold gong gong...2dae gif mi scold stupid...so sad 4 her...dunno wat she wil gif mi scold tmr...
juz had a nice valentine's dae chat wif papaya...she was feelin borin so msg mi...coz I didn't feel e vibration so took veri long 2 reply her...den her grp mates came alrdy 4 e convo thingy....ask her go tok wif her grp mates 2 develop e feelin...den later can communicate well 4 e convo thingy...guess wat she sae...she sae onli need 2 haf feelins when tok 2 mi n even muack mi n blow over e muack...haha...siao 1 lah she...anyway,papaya,I m straight...so better dun haf tis tot in ur mind...but tis few weeks,e few if us,sexy legs,mango,papaya,pretty n mi a bit nt straight...dunno wat happen...
so sad ar...2dae valentine's dae den nobody date us...haiz...onli pretty n mango gt ppl 2 date..banana neh,I dunno...mayb datin rite nw...haha...she's gonna kill ppl when she c tis..penguin didn't cum sch 2dae...dunno gt date anot...e rest of us leh,goin datin 2 bugis later...haha...we date ourself...
haiz...papaya stil haven't cum bak frm her convo thingy...mayb sum1 dates her so she went datin n 4get abt us waitin 4 her in e lab...so sad...
hmm...ppl I goin off...dun miss mi wor.....can go tag my blog if miss mi wor...tata....muack...Happy Valentine's Day ppl.... Love is a great thing
If only you knew..
Published at 3:00 PM
Tuesday, February 13, 2007Will not blog tonight so might as well blog now than not blogging at all today. Yesterday was a little moody the whole day so had like no mood to blog but like forced myself anyway because you know, a habit I guess. Also like it's a sin to me not blog everyday. So it's like weird if like a few days in a row I never blog. has to be good reason for that. That time think was term test and lab test and Samba performances. So was like very like tired and moody and like stuff like that.
Didn't feel like going to school today. Yesterday blog late until sleep near midnight. Then alarm rang at 7.30 but Annoying Bratt woke up that time and bathed so went back to sleep. Woke up to watch the clock every few minutes. Always telling myself, "Okay, five more minutes". In the end, many minutes passed and finally got up at 8.15. Took my own very sweet loving time to get ready and left, don't know what time left home. Didn't see the clock then.
Was like ten minutes late for oopg lesson and like walked very like slowly towards the school and like trying hard not to look at my shoes. Wearing high heels so like not comfortable but like no choice because like discussed with Sexy Legs yesterday to like both wear high heels. Gave many clues to like Pepper but she like very slow cannot get it. So like today surprise her and maybe like the Fruit Baskets that Sexy Legs and I like wear green high heels today.
Anyway, Kumar like want to disturb me by calling my name loud nad reading my blog out loud but then like I showed no reaction because like that's me. Was busy blogging so like not paying attention to my surroundings. Now kumar like playing some computer games like fighting like that with three friends os his. One weirdo and the other, well, not sure what to call him. They are both from like Desmond's class I think. One of them also from my psycho tut class. The so-called bleer bleer one.
Know my english today a bit sort sort but doesn't really matter. "Fatty bom-boms", he says. That's Kumar. They seem so excited playing the games. The noisiest in the lab currently.
Thought wanted to tell you about the dream I had few nights ago but like forgotten what happened in the dream. So sad. Was thinking of something but typing made me forget it. Let me try remember. Wait a moment please.
Thank you for waiting. Unfortunately, I am still unable to recall what I had thought of a moment ago. Too bad. :(
Now like waiting for Yan Chen to come in so like we can watch the videos I just downloaded from you tube like since I entered the comp lab. Also like waiting for lab I am facing to disappear into thin air so like the lesson can be cancelled so like everyone will ba happy especially me. Also like waiting for the lab tutor to die. Good thing it ain't the prasana I like. What the...I just made a like confession. Uh oh.
Know I am talking crap because I cannot recall anything like extraordinary that happened in the past only the bad and sad time I had. No, no. Do not enter that zone please. i will start cursing if I do. For you and my own like good.
They still playing don't know what carppy thing and pressing only like a few keys on the keyboard and making so much noise. Like duh! Press key of course has to be on the like keyboard and not anything else. you think what? The monitor?
Let's continue my imaginary story. That time only introduced to you the characters in my story. The MP'S. Now let's get personal. Patty Potter found her charming prince named Micheal. Holy shit! I forgot his last name. The very important part of the name that links him to his holy family. Hahah. All crap stuff. Sorry. Sarah Simpson found her true love C.K. Ckark Kent. I found my long lost brother and twin sister, Musica Timberlick and Periwinkle Paige Piper Pru Timberlick.
To be continued next time. Bubye! Love is a great thing
If only you knew..
Published at 11:25 AM
Monday, February 12, 2007Listening to Siti Nurhaliza's song entitled Biarlah Rahsia. She has a powerful voice. But I started nit liking her since her marriage announcement. Of all people she must choose a divorcee. Not good taste she has.
Both legs still aching like mad hotdogs. Hahah. Get it? Mad hotdogs. Oh, nevermind.
Looking at people's blogs and logging into many of my accounts at friendster, lovehappens, etc. Today Lioness looked damn hot in school. She had make-up and her hair was done real nicely. Chicken asked me to call her just now so I did. She did good. Very, very good. She got 19 for her L1R4 and 18 if you count in her CCA points. I'm jealous. Hmph!
Anyway, her results made my mood go up, up, up and away! So happy for her. Glad she pulled herself through. Should she have retained? No! Never waste your time doing everything even the ones you already did well. She did the right thing. Lioness did too. Oh yeah! Forgot was talking about her hotness today. Hahah.
Her hair was like so whoo! And her make-up, well it could be better but still a great effort done there. All for a friend. You see how a good friend she is. Love her. Muach!
Anyway, chatting with my friends and couzin. Tagging my own blog. Nothing to do. Went cycling at East Coast yesterday. With Prison Pops, Mum Dee, Rawiyah and Annoying Bratt. Want to change Rawiyah's name. To Talk-a-lot Gal. She talks a lot. Like a train zooming past. Hahah. I'm evil.
At night asked Mak to help me find a nice brooch for someone special in school. She straightaway said no without thinking of me gard damn feelings. Said she had no time. Mentioned Prison Pops. I was furious. Whenever anything or anyone talks about him I will go bananas I'm telling you. Not that it means I will turn to a banana. Just that, I just cannot except that my own father is, you know. So stupid and such a fool. I just hope and pray that I will never end up being like him. It's starting to show. I hate it. Hate him.
Shit larr. Why did I talk about that. Now I'm back to square 1. I need sleeping pills. I need memory loss. I need forget I had a dad and step-mother and step-brother. Useless beings on earth. Eat shit! Love is a great thing
If only you knew..
Published at 9:10 PM
Friday, February 09, 2007Two days ago went shopping with Lioness and her friend that I have met before. Annoying Bratt has met her too. That time we met in Expo for the Adidas and Popular sale. Bought a few things we tought were cheap. But came home and got scolded by Mak. Said not even herself had gone to any expensive branded goods sale. Her advise was not to be like Prison Pops. Do not pretend you are rich by tring to go to some fancy stores looking at things you can't afford. True, it makes you feel that your life is miserable.
My life isn't miserable. It's full of friends and relatives that really care for me. Except a few I will not mention as it will make me curse. I tend to curse a lot when I'm angry. So sad.
Anyway, went shopping with them and bought a few things. Two pairs of earrings for five bucks. Actually it was three. But it was supposedly to be two for five but we picked three so the aunty said it's okay so we took three for five. How lucky were we!
They bought a lot of things. They really need to cut down that bad habit or they would be considered like poor nomatter how rich they are. Seriously. Next time when I go out shopping with her, I would be the negative person there. Always telling her are you sure you want to buy this? Is it so worthit that you must buy it today? Are you that desperate to want it so badly that you will regret and start losing your mind if you don't buy it? Exagerating. But still I will do that. At least I will try.
Her friend like our friend. One of the Fruit Baskets. New name for our gang of friends. Discussed it yesterday. Fruit Baskets. Hahah.
Yesterday had my presentation. I didn't realise that I was looking at the powerpoint slides and my Q-cards too much. You don't really know what you are doing when you are actually doing it because all your focus was to calm yourself down, not be too abviously nervous and wanting to pee urgently. Just wanting to get it done and over with as quickly as possible. The reason why I looked and read my stuff was because it was all done at the very last minute. Never memorised and didn't know what comes next.
But I will be ready next week. Oh yes I will. Do my best and hopefully get a B. Yes I wan to do well. Get a B if not an A. Need some guidance from Pretty. She's really good at it. I can be good if I practice like a dozen times. Like in Secondary 1. I practiced for like a month. Boy was I confident and did my best. And I received very good comments from my teachers. I was good.
Stupid mosquitoes. Can't take my arm took my feet. Both of them bitten by those darn mosquitoes. My house (thanks to my idiotic maid) is breeding mosquitoes. When that person who inspects you know, whether we're breeding mosquitoes come, he will know for sure our house ain't safe from them. Thank to her. Hate her. When is she leaving? July. Too long. I want her to leave now! Or maybe after my exams are over and the holiday starts. Then she leaves. I can do a better job than her. The only problem with me is my darn laziness.
I am one of the most laziest person I have ever known. Other than that barbaric math lecturer and Prison Pops. Haiz, so sad. Have carc lab test later. I can score well, as long as I don't come late like last semester. Just because I came late for the lab test, I didn't get to finish the paper, I failed the entire semester of carc. Stupid subject. Love is a great thing
If only you knew..
Published at 12:48 PM
Tuesday, February 06, 2007Wonder and free, wish I could be, part fo that world. When's it my turn, when I love, love to explore the shore up above. Out of the sea, wish I could be, part of that world. *singing*
Love that song a lot. A lot a lot. Was late for fndb lab test. Luckily not kicked out. No time limit either. Cocked up at first, but got a hang of it. Finished all questions with some errors but didn't know how to do question 2. Very worried for Yan Chen. Very, very worried about him.
Ate fish and chips for branch. Yan Chen told me he got full marks for fndb case study 2 and passes his case study test. Good for him. Said he should be happy for himself. Encouraged him to do well for dcnk exam. He should be able to get through it. My favourite subject. Must be easy for everyone. If anyone finding difficulty, come to me. Will be more than happy to help.
Went to favourite lab looking for Pepper. Joked around and played internet games. Penguin came then Lioness then Pepper's husband. Then other people started coming like Penguin's and husband's groupmates. For a while the couple wrestled and Lioness was brought into the wrestling match. Husband pervert. So lesbian. Wanted to take on me too but luckily I hurried away from the "crime" scene. Long struggle. Noisy too. Wonder if it disturbed the rest.
Went for psycho tutorial which was presentations for three groups. One group was short of members so had to squeeze them next week with the rest. Overall wasn't that good except fpr Keith. All the Keiths that I met before are good at speech. One at Venture Era another in school. Boy I miss Venture Era. Miss talking with oh... forgot her name. Damn. How can I forget? Nevermind. And cracking jokes with Shawn or Silva or whatever his name is. Hahah.
Discussed with Leon, Emily & Sexy Legs outside the lt. Was looking forward to Saturday's video taking. Thought it would be so fun and much funnier than the first. Too bad its due tomorrow so decided it best to just use the old one. Sad. Emily was very disappionted. One of her points focused on punishments and new video showed more on that perspective.
Lioness came out. There was a little drama between her and Leon. My group was to meet at my house for presentation practise.
Walked to bridge with Sexy Legs, Lioness and Emily. Walked to bus stop with Lioness and Emily. Took bus with Lioness. Went home saw Annoying Bratt naked in room. She just showered and I've seen her naked since like when she was born. Duh! You think babies are born with chlothes on? You must be kidding.
Yesterday night couldn't sleep at all. Tried doing things that will make me doze off but nothing seemed to work. Took the advantage and played with my imagination. Suddenly my mind somehow had a mind of its own. Funny. Mind also have mind. Woow. Thought of ghosts and imagined pontianak and aliens (those gruesome ones from the movie "Alien") appearing from nowhere attacking me. Was scared to death that night. Kept lying flat so anything approaches me I would know. Kept opening and shutting my eyes to make sure I was safe there. Others were fast asleep. I was alone at the other end of the room trying to get rid of those images but unable to do so. Not the first time this kind of thing happens to me. Learned psycho in school so said to myself, "It's all in your head. There are no such creatures here. You are safe. Go to sleep." Still I couldn't sleep. After what seemed like hours, I fell into a deep sleep.
Had a nightmare. Was in train station. Not the ugly ones in Singapore. One lift on right platform. Another lift on the other one. I was like the camera's point of view. Saw an alien came out of the lift. Scared, ran out of the station. Went to what seemed like the town. Two shops side by side. Saw a guy (a familiar face, one of the actors on tv) opened the shop on the left. A lady opened the one on the right. Both came out of the shops to meet. I went up to them then followed the lady in her shop. Saw my cap. Exactly the same one Prison Pop (dad) gave me last Sunday.
Knew at that instance the guy was my father and the lady was my mother. Took the cap and went back a different route. Jumped down from somewhere like I have been doing that for years. Saw the black MIB (Men In Black) sitting on s bench. He saw me but I walked my route ignoring him. Saw an alien out on the platform. Hid somewhere. Once out of range from alien's sight, ran straight for the lift on the right platform. Hid there a while and pressed button down to my apartment. Funny. Buttons were not by the side of the door. Was at the opposite end.
Can't remember the rest, woke up then. Stared at the ceiling. Played wiht my imagination. Wanted to play as a role of the girl I always play but cant stop thinking of the nightmare. Weird, don't you think? I kind of like continued the "movie" till the end. If you want to know, ask me. Will be happy to tell you the whole movie. Love is a great thing
If only you knew..
Published at 6:59 PM
Monday, February 05, 2007Today I wore short black skirt. Yan Chen bought take away food and came my house to eat as usual. Went to design school to meet Pepper, Sexy Legs, Yen Ting (forgot her nick name), Penguin, Lioness, Pretty & Banana. Wow! That's a huge group of friends I have. Hahah.
Went to favourite lab after that. Deleted one of my blogs and kept the other one. People kept asking me to try change my blog skin. Guess they find it ugly or something. But guess what, I love my blog skin. It's simple and neat. And it's blue. Love blue. Favourite colour is blue.
Did not pay any amount of attention to lecturer in OOPG lecture. Too bad for her. Who asked her to teach the suckiest subject of the semester? Not me. Na-ah. Bought a set of 2 piece kaya & butter bread, 2 balls (thinking dirty -__-") and tea. Also bought something from the first stall you see when u enter Flavours (ITAS). Have no idea what that thing is called. Very crunchy and tasty though.
In the toilet on our way to the lecture hall from the lab I heard something dropped and crashed. Like a calculator dropped inside the toilet bowl then broke into pieces. Didn't dare talk to Yen Ting at first but I got the courage and asked her what happened. Told me her laptop dropped from the top of the toilet roll thingy, hit the toilet bowl (luckily didn't went in, she would have to buy or fix it), and fell onto the floor. Heard she said "shit!" too. Softly as someone else was in there. Luckily, laptop was fine but said the battery was a little distorted or somthing. Talked while climbing down the stairs. Felt ackward. The first time in a year of knowing her I had a proper normal conversation with her. Why am I so scared of talking to her. I felt she tends to over-react most of the time. She is full of drama. I don't like people who likes to over-react. But I was wrong. I over-react too sometimes. That's just her way of having fun. Nice girl to talk to.
Big change. First Pretty than Yen Ting. Banana next. Don't think so. Will feel small if I stand next to her and chat. Ya, ya I know. I am small sized. Haiz... -__-"
So, went POSBank after school with Lioness. I withdrew and she deposited $. Went NTUC Fairprice. Bought sushi and maggie mee. She bought fruits and noddles too. That was when the worrying started. Called office, a female voice spoke and said Norezan is on leave today. Was shocked and called Mak's phone. No reply so called home. Annoying Bratt said she went to court and I started panicking.
Mak never approved of me wearing clothes that are too open. No shorts, no sliffless shirts, no short skirts. In addition, no dying of hair, no colouring of nails when not having period (will refer to that as "red days" in future), etc, etc. Anyway, told Lioness my situation and she suggested I lie. If ever Mak is downstairs and saw me wearing short skirt, have to tell her I had presentation today so need to wear black skirt. Not such a good excuse. Have many black long pants in the cupboard. Just prayed and hoped she was not downstairs. Actually she wasn't even at home. Mak called asking me why I called, told her I wanted to buy noodles. Said she was in Tampines interchange. I gave Lioness that shocked panicky face. She stared at me wondering what was wrong. Discussed how to avoid Mak's scoldings all the way to the MRT station. Bought conccession which will only start tomorrow.
Was lucky. God loves me. Was very, very lucky. House seemed dark. It always seemed dark. Maid doesn't like lights to be on. Love working in the dark. Want to spoil your eyes go ahead. But not, definitely not when Rawiyah is around. Want her to have perfect good eyesight so Mak don't have to cough up another $200 for her glasses every year and she could run around freely without having to take care of her glasses once in a while. Anyway, was acting like very strange. Afraid people might find me looking very suspicious so I kind of like pretended I was carrying a surprise package home. As if.
Took out my key. Keys have tinggling noise so I hold them very tight. Opened the gate s-l-o-w-l-y. Bent down a little to watch the stairs. Afraid Mak would come down anytime. Took of my sandals, s-l-o-w-l-y. Went in, placed plastic on the table. Locked the gate, c-a-r-e-f-u-l-l-y, without a sound. Went up and ran into the room and quickly changed into jeans. Whew! That was certainly close.
Went into Mak's room had a nice chat and bathed. Went back into the room and had another nicer longer chat. Very interesting conversation. Discovered many new things. Learned a lot of lesson. Nah. No scolding. Just a nice mother and daughter chat. Want to know. Just know that it is okay to talk about it in front of me. I am a strong girl and will not cry for something so expected. I pity my sisters for having such a disgraceful member of the family. Not ashamed of having him as a member of my family. In fact, don't really consider him as pert of my family. He's just a guy who pays for some of our expences.
Last month, he never called. Not once. Was angry about it. Wanted to do something in the weekend you know. Always look forward to outings with him. Anyway, just knew the reason today. He was in P-R-I-S-O-N. Yes. He was caught not once but twice for violation of vehicle thingy whatever you call it. He actually cheated not once but twice on the road. Didn't want to pay "uneccessarily". He tries cheating one time and got caught. Well, it wasn't enough for him now was it. NO, it wasn't. NOT AT ALL! He neede to try it a second time. And got a fine of not a hundred but $15000 gard damn dollars. What the fuck was he thinking?! Of course, he could not pay the "price", so they were kind enough to reduce to $8000 gard damn dollars. Even that, he could not pay. He could not. OF COURSE HE CANT! HE'S A FUCKING ASSHOLE WHO JUST GOT HIMSELF INTO TROUBLE NOT ONCE BUT TWICE!
So he could not pay. What do they do to FUCKERS like him? Throw him in J-A-I-L. Yes. He spent the last month in his lovely ne hotel room specially booked for him. Told a joke to Mak. "You should have asked him : How was your stay there?". I want to ask him. That ASSHOLE FUCKER! Moron. He's a big fucking time moron.
But that's not all folks. That kind of minor attention wasn't enough for an asshole who likes free-sex-sucking-his-dick like him. He has to quit his job. His nice stable job in NTUC. HE HAS TO QUIT! His reason being, "They were going to fire me anyway." Gard dammit you! That is so fucking lame! I... I am so shameful to be your daughter. So shameful. He still owes his fines and Mak $600 of medical bills. WHAT WERE YOU THINKING!?!?!?
He's jobless, broke, and his wife is in the verge of... I don't know. Divorcing him? She should. Also, went out with him last weekend. Saw pictures of two sexily possed women in his phone. I hope. I do really, really hope he is not going back to his dirty habit of watching porn. And masterbedding. If he still does it I... I really do not know what to say to him. I am so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so shameful. Love is a great thing
If only you knew..
Published at 8:41 PM
"Chatting with Sexy Legs and Chicken online. Looking and reading all my friends' blogs. Tagging people and blogging. What about listening to music? Nah. Don't feel like it. Always tell people when asked, that I need to listen to soft music when I do my work or revision but it's actually not true. Been trying for many dozans of years. Actually not dozens. Was just exageratting. If it was really dozens I would be much older than I really am. Hahah. Anyway, been trying for long time to concentrate doing something while listening to homework. Yes sometimes I can concentrate with little music but only when its too quiet outside. But normally the house I live in is always noisy so no music is needed. As long as there is a sound other than the ticking of the clock, I'm fine with it. I hate saying that this is my house. Because it's not. It's my step-father's house. He payed for it. His sister or parents or whoever bought it. Mak, my sisters and I just moved in after she got married to him. It's not my house. It's just the house that I live in. That's why I hate this house. That's why sometimes (most of the time, nowadays) I feel like I don't belong here. Tomorrow, hopefully, is going to be a fun and exciting day for both me and Rawiyah. We're going cycling with Pops at East Coast Park. I plan to go ice-skating with Ain, Ho Yeh, Nafisah and Yan Chen during the semester holidays. Wish to watch the latest movies with all my friends scattered aroung Singapore. It's too small this country. Hate it. Government doing fine but they can do better. Got to watch my favourite funny movie or whatever. Chao!"
~Saturday, February 3, 2007 Love is a great thing
If only you knew..
Published at 1:40 PM
"It's good to be blogging again. I guess in my previous post was a little too harsh on my friends and a little too insensitive of me. Well, i was tired and frustrated and moody plus I had no peitience whatsoever. So do forgive me people. And thanks for all your worried looks and concern tone of voice. Hahah. Going off to "chiong" some snacks. Be right back. Listening to Annoying Bratt's band song. That time they played in a concert I recently went to with Mak and Rawiyah. Giving her "comments" on how her band can improve on their performance. I'm not so good at playing but when it comes to critisism I'm number one. Yahoo! Anyway, almost everyone's presentation skills in my class was "horrendously" terribly so wrong! Hehe. Told you I'm great @ critisising. Whoahaha! I am feeling so damn evil right now. Since Ain is "bullying" me, let me bully someone else tomorrow can? But I have no lesson tomorrow. Anyway, I've already bullied Rawiyah much just now. Poor her. Because of that someone in school. Cannot stand her really. Another annoying bratt. What to do tomorrow? Have no idea. Still feel like I need a cap to wear to school especially now that strong winds blow my hair out of shape everytime I'm outside. Grrr... so irritating to adjust my hair every now and then. My friends like it though. They even wanted to take a picture of my and my ugly-messy-irritating-uncontrollable hair. Gosh... when will I be able to aford a hair change. You know, go into the hair dresser and ask for a hair style I want to live with for the rest of my life. But then I would need to get hair treatments every once in a while. So leceh. Hate my hair. Hate my hair. Hate my hair. Hate my hair. Hate my hair. Hate my hair. Hate my hair. Hate my hair. Hate my hair. Hate my hair. Hate my hair. Hate my hair. Hate my hair. Hate my hair. Hate my hair. Hate my hair. Hate my hair. Hate my hair. Hate my hair. Hate my hair. Hate my hair. Hate my hair. Hate my hair. Hate my hair. Hate my hair. Hate my hair. Hate my hair. Hate my hair. Hate my hair. Hate my hair. Hate my hair. Hate my hair. Hate my hair. Hate my hair. Hate my hair. Hate my hair. Hate my hair. Hate my hair. Hate my hair. Hate my hair. Hate my hair. Hate my hair. Hate my hair. Hate my hair. Hate my hair. Hate my hair. Hate my hair. Hate my hair. Hate my hair. Hate my hair. Hate my hair. That should be enough don't you think. But it won't change a thing now will it? Tomorrow when I wake up my hair will still be as hateble-messy-irritating-uncontrollable-ugly as usual. What to do. I'm born with this hair. It was actually nice when I was little. Could show you the pictures but don't have that image in the computer. It's in one of the family photo albums. Guess that's all for today. Plucking out my eye lashes now. Feels good. You would have noticed that my eye lashes are lesser than it should be. I have this disgusting and very bad habit that I can't seem to be able to get rid of it. How? Help me? The end."
~Thursday, February 1, 2007 Love is a great thing
If only you knew..
Published at 1:39 PM
"In oopg lab class. Teacher doing tutorial about interfaces and implementations and all that crap. "Similar to inheritance", she says. Sucker. It sucks all the good life out of me. Why? Bacause it sucks to the core. Damn boring. Not interesting and the teacher not making it any better. In fact, it's making it even worse. Wanted to blog yesterday but was too tired after going shooping with Lioness and Penguin after school. Good eh? shopping after school. As if I'm that spoiled and rich. Actually, I am spoiled. But too bad, I'm not rich. Bought single bra strip and a hairband. Wearing the hairband now. Thnk my hair looks a little funny today. My hair looks funny everyday. Each day so-called "new" hairstyle. My hair has it's own mood also. If it feels lousy, then it will look weird and very messy. If it feels good, it will look good and makes me feel good too. Lots of double "oo" in this paragraph. Heheh. Just read Hanistar's blog. Shock to see such a lively girl who tells crappy jokes about herself everyday has so much problems all hidden deep in her heart. It's good she releases tham all in her blog. That's what blogs are for, or so I think. That's for me too. That's one reason why I want to blog in the middle of the lesson. Yesterday I had my very first feeling of hatred towards one of my friends in school. Fortunately, all was okay and back to normal at the end of the day. I was like talking to my heart and mind in the lecture hall. Felt desperate to blog. Kept saying bad things and cursing people everywhere. Even the lecturer who is supposedly "innocent". As if. Huh! I recorded a lot of what I felt inside into my mobile phone. Let me quietly type it down for you all to see. Note this, I will not record down things that will jeapordise my friendships in school. Because I know only they are the ones reading my blog. And of course my dear cousin. Nothing bad about her. That's because I hardly ever get to see her. So sad. :( Message number 1: "Call me bitch!". You see how vulgar I am. Ish, ish. So sad. :x Message number 2: "Shit you lar!!why the hell must i listen to you!?Hah! Tell me why!!!". Gee I must have been really angry at that moment. But too bad I can't recall what exactly happened at that time. Message number 3: "You are useless you know that!". Man I had a lot a lot of bad days last year. I honestly cannot recall anything at all of the incidents that happened to make me so angry anf frustrated. I only remember getting angry and typing down my feelings into my phone as I could not hurt other people's feelings by shouting out my anger at them. I am so considerate. Heheh. Bluek! :]> Message number 4: "U really amah eh u. So slow. Say u coming an hour ago. Im really rotting here with ur food.". This one I remember very clearly. The next one comes together with this. It's the second message about the same situation. Message number 5: "Whey! Dun recognise ur own fren izzit? Wth gal! Dun fel paiseh izzit?Shame on u. Lol.". Hahah. This message makes me laugh. Next time I tell you what really happened okay? You can ask Chun Hui too if you want. But don't think now is a good timing. She's been very down lately. We all know exactly why. Message number 6: "He has no respect 4 e alderlies! Wtf does he think he is. Y e hell muz i hv a dad like him? Why? Why gard dammit?!". Think I spelled the last few words wrong. Have no idea. Went out with him yesterday. Showed paper of him wing my mum $600. Mum Dee saw it and got angry. Wonder if it's because she thought he paid but he actually didn't or was it other things that's bugging her. Not my problem. Don't need to know. Last message of the day. This message I love to read because it makes me happy to see him suffer. Unfortunately, most of it is in malay. I am not bothered to translate them for those who are curious to know what I wrote. Sorry people. Message number 7: "Pak nak kak discuss $ issues privately n not depan mum d. Rasa dia tipu wife yg dia dah byr tapi selama ni dia blm. Mum d skarg nmpk mrh. Pak stuck dlm situatn.". Hah! He is suffering. Pity Mum Dee though. Hope she does not file for a second divorce for both him and herself. Poor her. What to so. Evil people do exist in this world."
~Monday, January 29, 2007 Love is a great thing
If only you knew..
Published at 1:38 PM
"Now in favourite lab accompanying Sexy Legs for her OOPG make-up lesson. Male teacher here explaining arrays. His voice stern and loud. Very clear. But I do not give a shit to what he says. Finally my FNDB project is done. Finish. Complete, almost. Yan Chen and I feel a little uncomfortable and guilty. Desmond has been doing most of the work. Even our parts that we were suppose to do were either incomplete or terribly wrong. He had to have his friend to help him compile everything and correcting them one by one. Poor him. Yan Chen especially feel very guilty as he did not anything much as he did not have the slightest idea of how and what to do. Poor him too. Tomorrow I will be having my OOPG lab test in the morning from eleven till twelve thirty. Then I will be having the time of my life (hopefully) with Pepper and her church friends. They actually planned to go to the Zoo. PLanned fun games to play there and to eat lunch at KFC. I was suppose to cough up $15 for the enrty fee. I don't have $15. And I certainly can't save that much money in like one week's time. Then I am to call her just now. She told me her church gang was willing to pay $10 for me. But there might be a change of plans. Instead of the Zoo they may be meeting in an air-conditioned place playing board games. She says it will be fun so what the heck. I will just follow suit. I would like to go to the Zoo. It would be more fun but need to pay more. Playing board games ain't that bad either. I get to save more money too. Heheh. Anyway, I feel so damn tired and sleepy. I am pretending to pay attention while blogging while he types out the answers and explains to the class certain shit I do not understand. That was too close. He walked in front of my computer and I know for sure from his position he is not able to even peek at what I am doing. But then, he suddenly walked away to Amelia sitting to my left and walked behind me. I quickly took hold of my mouse and clicked anywhere but the page of my blog. Here he come s again. Must beware. He walks at fast pace. Have to finish soon as Sexy Legs wants to read and tag my blog. That's it then. Till next time. Chao!"
~Friday, January 26, 2007 Love is a great thing
If only you knew..
Published at 1:37 PM
"I blogged 3 times today. Why? First, there was lesson booked in one of the lab that we were in. So, I had to stop blogging halfway and thought I could continue later on. But no. While blogging, some really k-po people (1st Lioness then Chin Chao butt in) had to voice out their weird crappy stuff in my entry. And oh boy were they good at it. Until I needed to publish it before they do more harm to it. We actually had to struggle typing what Chin Chao didn't want us to and quickly publish it. Man what a day. What a day. Let me see. Where did I stop. Was typing about the spamming thing that has been going on for a while. What else? Give me a moment to recall. Rawiyah cried again today. She was stressed because she finds her homework too difficult. Her eyes were already bloody red when I reached home. Had to calm her down. Told her may seem difficult because she doen't understand but once it is layed out in front of her, she will get what she is suppose to do and will find it rather easy to do. Asked her to wash her face and realx. She had the same reaction yesterday. Crying and all. But yesterday I didn't see her cry. Mak did and she told me. Mak regret how she treated Rawiyah two days ago. She was too harsh on her. Too strict until Rawiyah cried in the middle of the night. It got her attention alright. Now when she thinks about homework she will think about the scoldings she got from Mak and will eventually cry. That's what I think her thinking is like. I'm studying psychology you see. Rawiyah is my first ever patient that I have. Since the fndb tutor gave the answer to one of the tutorial questions, I learnt how to spell petient properly. Last time I spelled it as "paitient". My english really sucks. Getting suckier as the days go by. Nowadays I can't stop teasing Lioness. But I tahan a bit today. Many times I wanted to say out a joke about her I hold it back. I didn't want to get beaten up by her again. Scared of the Lion. Hahah. Just read Ain's & Hanistar's & Chicken's blogs. Tagged them all. Chatting with Sexy Legs. She's really stressed up about this spamming thing. I know it's none of my business but sometimes I just have the feeling I need to do something about it. I can't just sit here and let the innocent die? As if. Anyway, whats there to be done. Whats done is done. No point looking back if it serves nothing other than learning from your mistakes. Hope I don't get spammed next. Hahah. I wonder if I spelled spam correctly? Lol."
~Wednesday, January 24, 2007 Love is a great thing
If only you knew..
Published at 1:37 PM
"Poor Sexy Legs. I pity her a lot. A lot a lot. I have never seen or been in her situation before. Hope it will turn out okay in the end. All's well that end's well. It certainly did not start well. Somehow I have a very strange feeling that this is only the beginning. If things gets any worse, I think this kind of thing might involve people with higher authority. At least now my headache is gone. I only needed to think. Hahah. Shit larr. My headache is back. Oh its gone. I only had to tap my feet to the beat. Keep tapping. It's back again. I hate getting headaches. It hurts my head. The sickness I hate most is sore and dry throat. The second is this stupid fcuking headache. It hurts! Damn hurtful! Third thing is the nose. Flu and blocked nose and runny nose and also cold. I had a very bad cold recently and trust me it ain't easy sneezing out the phleghm while having a cold. It hurts damn a lot and you will feel tired and drowsy aqnd sleepy and your head spins 360 degrees over and over again. Got to go. Make-up class in this lab. Continue later. Chao!"
~Tuesday, January 23, 2007 Love is a great thing
If only you knew..
Published at 1:36 PM
"Feeling sick. Was very sick on Friday. Still had to go for the Open House performance and then shopping with Penguin and Lioness. I feel guilty too. That day, I had the worst feeling ever. The guilty feeling. After my performance I went straight to the lab looking for my friends. There was a lesson a little after that. Not for me or my friends, no. For my cmsk1 classmates. We went to Flavours to eat then look for another lab to finish up thier assignment. There was no particular software that they needed. Or I have heard that they saved their work into that particular computer. What rubbish am I talking about? Nevermind, donkey. Anyway, skip..skip..skip..went to see Yan Chen's performance. He played a very familiar chinese song instead of the solo piece he always talks about. I am really not in the mood for blogging. For the past ten to fifteen minutes have been forcing myself to think and write. Well, no more. You want to hear the full story? Well, too bad. You have to ask me personally. That is if you know where to find me. Good luck on that. Chao!"
~Sunday, January 21, 2007 Love is a great thing
If only you knew..
Published at 1:34 PM
"ehey!!! last week plus this week very the busy...many many freaking projects to do...many many assignments to hand in...many many times to meet & discuss but no result...actually got ar...last night the sambe prac not too bad...but ah...since monday rite, wenever i finish playing agogo bells & we stop suddenly (that is the ending, lol), i can always feel my heartbeat...beat very fast...reminds me of my illness...juz dun wan it to come back...so scared being hospitalized...did i spell correctly? uh...dunno leh...heck care larr... alot of changes...better than de rap lor...i like! i love. hahah...juz playing ard...nvm...anyway, wat else is dr...argh! my brain cant think of anything...i mean im not brain dead...juz...nvm lol. let me think...gv me a sec........................................................................................................................................ oh no! still cant think of anything! noooooooooooooooooooooo! y, y, y?! cant be like tis forever rite? rite?? rite?! argh! nonono, dun phunk wif my heart...hahah...crazy...lol.. anyway, now in sch lab wif chin chao ("not" ah mah), honeystar, lioness ("not" pea-pea), sexy-hotty legs, & me...tada! then um ltr i got cmsk1...can i not go? plz, plz, plz, plz, plz, plz, plz, plz...shitty hell...i hate tt lesson...the class fun coz de students dr veri crappy, teacher not bad oso...at least better than de cmsk3 teahcer (cant even remember my name lor)...but the lessons realy shucks mann...social ettiquette...how to start & end conversations...blah, blah, blah...all those rubbish thingys...but i muz admit de lesson last wk not too bad...3 min speed dating...i was hoping to get de funny guys but instead i got de okok guys...no offense ya guys... aft tt staying back do bit of cmsk3 den teach sexy-hotty legs fndb den teach yan chen oopg den go hm do cmsk3...haiz...dun think im pro in those subjs...in not ok...juz volunteered to help em...i like helping ppl...dunno y...habit i guess...a veri gd habit...hehe. recently got number of a 19 yr old guy at habbo...he shouted, "who wan be my gf add me", i juz added coz i tot he meant habbo gf...i was wrong...haiz...he msg me say he wan play naughty...i reply im not intrested blah, blah, blah...haiz...disappointed sia...juz like de 1st guy who ask me be his bf...gv me his email add but nvr online...forever nvr online...like wat sia...all like to cheat me...tink wat hah! i toy izzit! hah! wth! sob..sob...only wanted fun but in de end got nth...maybe i shdnt play habbo anymore...noooooooooooooooooooooooooo! muz play...met so many frenz dr...a gal fm malaysia, boy fm new zealand...so fun! wenever i feeling bored i always play...wen feeling sad oso play...my fav rm dr is de rooftop de hotel view dr...very nice... anyway, now waiting 4 time 2 pass...now onli ard 1.40pm...this fri goung shopping yahoo! but muz tahan...cant buy anything coz i not rich evrywk buy new tings onli 4 myself...i feel selfish tt way...not gd 2 me selfish noe...tts all larr coz sexy-hotty legs waiting to read my post of de day...haha."
~Tuesday, January 16, 2007 Love is a great thing
If only you knew..
Published at 1:33 PM
"not even six already have stories to tell...typhoon again this morning...dilly-dally eat breakfast & go sch...ho yeh still waiting for bus wen i reach sch liao...walau!!! my neck small huh! chin chao juz cekek me...both her small skinny-pinny hands can hold my neck 1 whole round leh! my neck tt small meh? i dun blive...chin chao finger too long...muz cut off...im telling u i dun hv small neck...if tt lioness gal hold my neck im very sure cannot 1 whole round... where was i? oh yea...waited half hr for lioness gal in front of lib...din go fav lab meet honeystar & peng coz i nd accompany lioness gal go bkshop...see i so nice willing 2 wait long long juz 2 accompany her buy psycho bk...& wat do i get in return? kena bully by her again...haiz...poor me... went 4 oopg make-up class & carc make-up lesson...was surprised to see peng face at glass part of door right in front of my carc class...follow em to fav lab...surprise 2 see tis huge guy following us...ey actually cudnt find any space to do work in any other labs & fav lab 1st row of comps cant be switched on...den he see here & dr, went back of class & dunno wat he press here press dr den prob solve...we occupy whole of 1st row till now... i felt hungry so ask lioness gal accompany me buy ta pao @ flavours...buy oledi go back...nearing fav lab saw tis 2 guys open back dr...dr only can be opened fm inside u see...we lazy 2 walk all de way to de front dr mah...lazy bumps yea...reminds me of camel? donkey? snake? all lazy bumps...chin chao can take de snake...lazy but clever...peng take camel...camels cant tok properly...haha lol...den lioness gal take donkey...wen she laugh can make sound "hee-haw"...HAHAHAHEHEHEHOHOHO...loll...tts a gd 1 yaya papaya...tts a veri gd 1...hahaha... anyway, i chase 2 keep dee door open...unfortunately, i slid to rech de dr but oledi shut tight...like wat de...slide so nice like matrix avoid bullets den din get open dr...haiz...waste effort...den tis lioness gal arr cannot stop laughing...me 2 actually...laugh laugh till go in lab oso still laugh...lioness gal tell peng & i tell chin chao bout de incident... den in lab sumore wah tt lioness gal cant keep 2 her own seat...haha...i guess she wan take break ah...2 stress oledi do oopg stupid assignment...if nvr do 30% of overall marks gone sia...stupid...anyway, she share my seat till can only fit half of my big butt on chair...lol...den we all read my frenster, my blog & sexy leg's blog...laugh laugh till dunno wen...den tt lioness gal still wan kepo kepo look at pics inside my toshiba...lab close liao...cont ltr..."
~Friday, January 12, 2007 Love is a great thing
If only you knew..
Published at 1:32 PM
"today very tired sia...think coz yest din slp early as usual...stayed back 2 do de stupid cmsk3 report...so sick of it oledi mann...trying to recall wat i did earlier today but cant get any memory of it all...guess my brain too tired oledi... now waiting for chicken to call my hp so we can chat...also to get my mind off sch & to destress...chatting wif few fellow frenz & blogging...etc, etc... woke up feeling quite fresh at 1st...but went 4 beauty sleep then woke up feeling all moody n all...haha...ho yeh told me my hair a bit weird today...i say i purposely did it...but ltr on my hair went hey wire & had quite a shock wen saw it in de ladies...quickly took a handful of tap water & styled my hair differently...make all unwanted ends as flat as possible... lessons as usual...ate lunch wif honeydew fruit at itas / flavours...cmsk1 wasnt tt much fun...i realise my true weakness...acting...i can nvr be an actress unless i throw away the shitty shyness part of me & do wat i muz 2 be wat i wan...actually i dun wan be actress...wun it be great if i can be choroegrapher? or proffessional ice skater? tap dancing ain't tt bad either...last time i wanted to be a drumset player in a pop band...the only prob wif all these is location & background...i dun hv gd family background...tis affects me greatly...Singapore sucks...too small & competitive...i rather migrate & be happy then rot here...no offense to de ppl tt loves S'pore... enuf 4 today i guess...till nxt time...chao!"
~Wednesday, January 10, 2007 Love is a great thing
If only you knew..
Published at 1:31 PM
"woke up almost at nn...wore full base make up...tot wan follow mak collect ain's bursary...but wasnt ready on time so stayed at hm...they came hm sooner than expected...said they were not allowed to enter coz they late mah...then ayah called wrong person & we tot kenduri cancel so we relax awhile...but he found de kad jemputan & say we still going out but to another jemputan...went dr but had to wait 4 like an hour coz de damn bride & groom late...stupid ar...noe ur wedding suppose be happee 1 still cum late & make supposedly guests wait 4 u 4 1 hr sumore...idiotic... after eat real slow while listen 2 band playing gd nice songs, went hm lor...wat else wanna do dr? the band cheat a little...only got base & guitar & keyboard...got see drumset nvr set finish but no1 play it...mite as well let me play it rite? i can show sum gd skills those rich & spoiled kids can learn...lot of em...wear dress like nvr wear anything...show here show dr...mite as well wear bra & undies onli rite? "
~Saturday, January 6, 2007 Love is a great thing
If only you knew..
Published at 1:30 PM
"its a nice day today...in school comp lab doing some hmwk im suppose to do during the holidays, but coz i was 2 lazy & unmotivated..lol... rawiyah's 1st day of sch...hope she does well today...wonder wat the 1st impression she made to the sch...hope she din cry like i did wen i 1st entered sch life...nowander i cried, sch sucks...sucks to the core...but cant tell rawiyah tt...hv to motivate her 2 do well & achieve her very best...she has high IQ i presume...juz like ain...not me, i hv my mum's genes...low IQ... very tired now...did a whole pg on de report...now cant concentrate anymore...short concentrating time span...wateva tt means...juz making up words as i go along...ltr going lec wif my fwren...her science lecturer quite cute so i wanna see him...hope its not a crush...it wud be my very 1st crush wif a teacher if it is...anyway i oso find another lecturer quite cute...he's married, haha...prasana we call him...indian of course... im hving 2nd tots bout my idol...yea i like clay aiken but since de day i saw this video clip on youtube.com bout his concert, i had doubts...he was swinging wif his backup singers & doing this pervertic dance moves wif her...eww yucks disgusting groose...but i can nvr hate his lovely strong potentialistic voice...i dun go 4 looks...i go 4 character (so-called)...i like josh now...he's handsome & has a wonderful gifted voice of an angel...lurve him... helping ho yeh doing her report...cant really rely on me though...im not a gd & reliable source...i make mistakes all de time...now wat do i do...slack...spent 8 whole hours wif the comp doing my psyco video yest wif emily...now its time to rest my eyes...hate the feeling of knowing radiation seeps in u while u trying to cope wif ur studies...noe wat i mean? nvm..."
~Tuesday, January 2, 2007 Love is a great thing
If only you knew..
Published at 1:28 PM
"cik lina's wedding yest...woke up late so got scolded by mak...helped put, gpt dressed, wore make up & did some treatments with hair with the wax bought day before with ho yeh & joanna...there saw the bride & groom all dressed nicely like stars...religious thing first...i cant keep my mouth shut, kept critisizing the grooms side of the family...guess i was a little jealous...their gifts were only for the bride, you know, jewelleries & all...we made food like puddings & chocolates for the whole crew...our mindsets are completely 100% different...lol... anyway when it was over i got so tired i bathed & watched tv...was suppose to do work & all but too tired to think...none of us ate anything for dinner coz we were so full from eating buffet at the wedding... today pops din reply any of his calls or messegers, he told ain he wanted to take us out today...its Hari Raya Haji today, 31st December 2006...wan to do big business now...oh ya, heard mak's fren's daughter had a sickness of some sort...kept peeing every few minutes...haha...hope its not too serious...wishing her get well soon...the end."
~Saturday, December 30, 2006 Love is a great thing
If only you knew..
Published at 1:28 PM
"today woke up after 11...got dressed & ate a small bowl of fishball soup...went to school bus stop to meet gp members & brought them here (home)...reharsed the commercial for like a thousand times & did the actual video repeatedly for hundreds of times...then went down to the comp to finish my part of the ppt slides...then leon went hm 1st...he was hungry & cudnt wait 2 go hm eat...haha...the other 2 went hm ltr on...rained the whole day since last night...my eyes hurt. cant believe my ears! chicken actually dedicated a song to me! omg omg omg! i felt so happy for the whole time since the dj mentioned her name as ass-syikin till the song ended. Invinsible by Clay Aiken...love tt guy. honestly drs only 2 true frenz tt i hv...they r the closest & most honest ppl i hv ever met...chicken & ho yeh...my 2 best frenz in the whole wide of um..s'pore...hehehe...the end."
~Tuesday, December 26, 2006 Love is a great thing
If only you knew..
Published at 1:27 PM
"yest went to a christmas party...tell you the whole event: we walked straight into the ladies with mummy dee to get ourselves fixed up for the event. mummy dee changed into a lovely tube-like black dress with a scarf over her shoulders. she looked lovely in it. we went up the stairs into a hallway full of expensive paintings with big frames & all. there was this huge mirror with such a thick frame ard it. we waited & wondered ard the hallways for mummy dee to say tt we were allowed to go in the ballroom. ain had trouble walking. she kept complaining tt her shoe was killing her. nomatter, i thought she looked very pretty with the matching earrings. i sometimes get jealous of her wavy but neat hair. mine is too curly & all over the place. few moments ltr we went into the ballroom to place our things. we sat at the table furthest away frm the stage. the ballroom was huge with chandaliers hanging at the two ends of the rm. the food was on the left & there was a reserved table on the extreme right. the dj section was at the front right & performances & food wud come out frm the door at the opposite end. each round table was neatly decorated with silverwear & stuff. each table can accomodate up to 10 ppl. tts a huge table tt is. we were sent out to wait for everyone tts invirted to arrive then we could all go in together & hv our dinner. we went dr early like ard 6.00 and we waited till 9.00. oh my gosh. we were rotting in the hallway with our tummy grumbling all the time. there were not tt many ppl but most of them not fm s'pore. we met the boss of the company, mr kenneth, his mother, gf & 14 yr old son. even though hes only 14, hes huge! soon hes going to be bigger than hes father they say. & hes only 14! my gosh! once we got in ladies & children get to take the food 1st. its a buffet u see. while ppl were dinning there were performances by the same ppl. they went fm table 2 table asking ppl 2 requests songs for them to sing. my table only had 9 ppl. & dr was this man. dun think hes fm s'pore either. he drank..my god..9 or more glasses of red wine. can smell it fm his bloody mouth. drunken guy says live life to the fullest, life is short, enjoy it while it lasts. my foot! hahah. after everyone seems full, the very funny & talented (so far my fav) host conducted a game. 6 beautifully dressed ladies (including mummy dee) got on stage & had to do catwalks. the winner was the gf of mr. kenneth. u think tts fair? definitely not! after the game was the kumar show. u noe the very pondan skeleton-look kumar. but before they start they had to send those 12 & below out somewhere. we found out y wen kumar started making jokes bout the government, sex & stuff. i remember 1 joke very clearly. but of course cant write here or ppl will start complainning & say how dirty i m. then they gv out top 20 to top 11 prizes. then another game with the men this time. two men (including pops) gv excuse of wanting to go gents so they wun be called into the game. cowards! winner was a malaysian. he won fot hving best james bond post. then they gv out top 10 prizes. mummy dee won third prize, a 2gb ipod. she actually jumped with joy on stage. my goodness! then we had a mass dance. 1st everyone lined in a line & went few rounds in the rm. then we went to the dance foor & had freestyle dancing. they made it like in the disco pubs. it was dark & crowded. men & women got physical, etc. guess they were all drunk then. ain & i try not to get too close to the crowd but we still dance & had fun. 20 secs left to christmas was the countdown. at midnight, ppl went ard wishing everyone merry christmas. overall my fav part was the kumar show..the end."
~Sunday, December 24, 2006 Love is a great thing
If only you knew..
Published at 1:25 PM
"today i met Yan Chen @ TM...we ate at kopitiam...the chicken noodle with soup was delicious! then we went look for a spot to do our assignment 1st in TM then CS...finally we decided the library...there were constructions so it wasnt as quiet as we expect it to be...new displays were made...eye tricks and all...we went to 2nd floor and sat at one pillar...we did parts 1 and a bit of part 2...then i was too tired to think anymore...went TM and CS again to look for zipdrive for the assignment...visit Yamaha shop to look @ drumset & guitars...bought a vcd & dvd and ice-cream...accompany him deposit money...went home. yesterday was planning to go vivo with chicken...wore the pink shirt specially 4 tt...he was ok with making a new fren...but..as always she din wanna meet anyone she doesnt already know...typical her...so tommorow i plan to wear the shirt when i go out with pops...not looking forward to it though. pops never even wished me on my birthday...maybe i ask for too much...thats me...sheila the spoiled brat! all i ask 4 was a new cap...that costs less than $10 for goodness sake! haiz...fed up already ar."
~Friday, December 22, 2006 Love is a great thing
If only you knew..
Published at 1:18 PM