yo yo yo....man ain commented my blog boring...nevermind...not meant for her anyway... suddenly i am so interested in japanese songs......got influenced by mango you see....these two or more days i got closer to her...weird eh? yea it is....but its just coz me and her like anime and some jap stuff....and she aint that bad person.....not that i thought her to be bad...no no.... whats with the many dots? i have no ides. anyway, wanted to tell you all bout my suckiest job ever. of course when i went for the interview the manager was damn nice to me. the first time i found her to be not nice was during my first day of training. actually i only went for a day of training so yea.v she likes to scold peole without questioning. and everytime she talks to me i have to act as if im scared of her and sorts. thats to stop myself from rolling my eyes at her and cursing whispers at her. hahah. woow man. i have english, chinese, malay and japanese songs. woow woow woow man. im so like multi-language person. maybe i should find some indian and korean songs too! hahah. so weird man. so very weird. oh dear. stomach ache. think coz of the period thing. didnt have it this whole week. not over the holidays no. when did it start? forgotten. like chen chen said i have short term memory and so does he. lol. i have to wait ten seconds after every download. reaonable but shocking and surprising the songs download so fast! kewl sia. a lot of them from anime i have watched before. other than youtube i thought i found other websites where i could watch all the episodes of all the anime's for free. i signed up for so many websites thats got to do with bleach and naruto and sorts you know. but turns out all need to pay. oh so very sad. v lets count down ten seconds. think now should be okay right? no a little while longer. now then. seems that im actually talking to myself instead of really blogging. told you whatever that comes to my mind i will type it down. went to lioness's blog yesterday and guess what? i found out she hasnt been blogging longer than i did. for a month i think. maybe more. the last post i saw was in june. and now is the last day of july. like waa.....not bad sia. pearl sleeping or trying to sleep with the light on and the irritating sounds im making while typing hahah. oohhh!!! i saw brave heart that song. yea i like that song. yeap but sadly i dont have a clue as to how the lyric goes or even the rhytm unless i listen to it over for a thousand times non stop. then it will be in my long tern memory dont you think? hahah. hikousen? what in the world is that? no idea myself man. okok enough of jap. later people will get sick and tired of just hearing me talk about jap all the time. oh no! will i be the next mango? nnoooo.......... ok a little too much drama dont you think? woo. ayah and mak fighting. ayah being unfair and mak tired and frustrated. they kept argueing once in a while. everytime i think bout them argueing reminds me of the time she always fight with pops. the last time they had a real big and loud arguement was at night and i cried horribky at that time. dont want just dont want just cant take it. we dont need history to repeat itself another time. no more please. enough tears have been shed. enough days we spent thinking and dwelling on matters that could either change or ruin our lives forever. never to turn back ever. now dont think i can look forward to the holidays anymore. will be working and so yea you know. busy busy busy all the time. now just taking a littl break before i have to force myself to do more research for my brochure. hardworking you say. ahah! but theres the other reason. sexy should know. i told her yesterday. you want to know you go ask her personally. can ask me also but incase ur so desperate to know and im not with you, only sexy. yea so yea. hahah rawiyah dont know doing what now. should be either doing homework or playing ar maybe watching tele. she cried just now. just coz she wasnt allowed to do three things at a time. how could she possibly concentrate on doing her homework and the movie while eating all at the same time? weird la she. then when ain made her off the tele to concentrate on eating then do her homework she cried like a baby man. then acted like a four year old when shes already seven. oh my goodness i was like wth upstairs coz i was getting ready to get into the toilet to bathe. i had to wrap myself in towel and so called tell her nicely from the top of the stairs to stop her nonsense and do what the older people than her say. degil larr. macam budal lain jugak. tak nak cakap dengar orang tua. ingat dorang tu betul sanngat. haiz..tak tau ape nak cakap. sad case. mak upstairs i guess doing her own work. or is she downstairs helping rawiyah with her homework? no idea. ayah is either watching tele or reading his newspapers. then ain upstairs i guess. homework or studying? no idea. oh ya! forgot to update you. bik ida is back. shes now doing the usual housework. but our routine has changed a little. i will wash my own plates after eating. i will try do by bed myself every morning if have time. most of the time no time coz i always drag myself slowly out of bed and into the bathroom. hahahh. just plain lazy. wore purple blouse and jeans with ain's white shiny slippers to school. went for opsy lab test. fail that test just like i am most likely going to fail dsag lab test. i hate lab tests most among all the tests that the school require us to go through. its liek their system to calculate how good we are in the various areas and maybe help us improve on those areas we are weaker at. im better at theory. yaya whatever. nerdy right? yaya papaya. hahah. but at least i have good fashion sense. pops and some of my friends say so. of course some of the days i was damn lazy to choose a proper outfit fo i just wear what i could grab first in my cupboard. yura yura. i love this song. coz its naruto song if im not wrong. i now have little of rave, naruto, saiyuki and bleach songs. with download more later on. i must give the website five minutes coz they doing some updating i guess. thats what the notice said. anyway, yea so after the test went to library with lioness, banana, mango and penguin. helped mango do her script thing. an hour later i know coz..... omg Omg OMG! this naruto opening theme song...im so in love with it. i love the opening anime they created and all. my favourite amongst them all. you know why especially. coz most of it is out sasuke. hes my favourite character in naruto. love him. SASUKE! if only have aguy like him to be my boyfriend. woah! that would be SEGOI!!!!! hahah. okay crazy mood now. woo...hes damn handsome lor. and i love his hair. and when he was younger hes outfit was blue. blue is my favourite color you know. SASUKE!!!!!!!! how to say i love you in jap? i should ask mango tomorrow. hahah. im crazy over him man. so sad he went with those stupid bad guys. forgot the leader's name. like voldermort like that you know. he very weak and he like to catch people whom he thinks their body is goog enough for him to take as his soul's container. something like that. in bleach hmm.... currently the character i most adore is the boy captain who came down to that little town from soul society. forgot his name ar. he quite cute also. in saiyuki you all should know i mentioned it before. hakkai of course. hes the most handsome there. yea. to me that is. most like decent and all. yea. in prince of tennis is fuji syuusuke. hes like so mysterious and i just love his character. you know when i watched the first few episodes of prince of tennis i actually thought fuji was a girl. his looks and especially his voice so gentle like a girls. and the way he carries himself also really like girl. until i understood that the tennis gang must be made up of at least seven playing members and one reserved. i like the captain but he hardly smiles. i dont like people who dont smile. shows they are not friendly. but as i went on to the last few episodes i fell in love with kikumaru eiji. he is such a great player being flexible and all. his hair was like mine i noticed. last time when my hair was much shorter. yea so i found our similarities in looks. and hes so bubbly and all i like it. so i love fuji and kikamaru-sama. the rest okay okay to me. i dont quite like echizen. hes far to young and well, dont know. just dont quite like him. hes personality sucks and yea he has ugly eyes. funny that most of the anime i watch i dont wuite like the main character. you noticed? i either like the backgound people or the bad guy. like harry potter also. think i told you before. dont like harry. ya he was cute last time and i used to adore ronald when he was so cute. but now they have grown and not very handsome also. the one who becomes more handsome than ever i find is draco malfoy. when i went to watch the third if im not wrong, at the cim\nema with mak and mak busu, he appeard and i was like omg Omg OMG! hes damn handsome that i felt that i wanted to marry him. hahah. no la that one too over already. man my post too lang. catch up next time. chao people! arrigatoguzaimasta for reading!

hey its been long again as usual... this morning alarm woke me around eight in the morning and i sat down on my bed daydreaming, leaning againt the uneven wall which my bed lay against. sorry for the suddenly change english languege descriptions that i am using. got influenced, you see, by the latest harry potter book by j.k rowlings that i am currently reading halfway through and cant wait to read more once i get home tonight. but that i will tell later. continueing from this morning. think i kind of sat on bed for twenty minutes or so coz when i finally got my buttocks off my bed i looked at the clock hanging just above my head and saw that it was eight twenty. i lazily, as you all should know my habit by now, got the necessary things hanging from the bar attatched to the wall above my cozy bed and placed them messily onto my bed. then i closed the orange curtains, took two towels which i assumed i would need, one for my lovely but messy hair and the other to cover up my naked body as i will have to walk from the bathroom just outside my grandfathers room into my room, which i have to share with my two sisters. currently my maid, as you all may know, is at home enjoying her time with her happy little family. that is why i now only share the room with my two sisters and not with my sisters ad the maid. last time you remember i used to always call her pimpled face all those. hahah. i dont regret them but now ya maybe i found that i was a little unfair and mean. so yea i have changed a little tiny winnie tinnie bit. hehe. okay sorry for the distraction chicken just messaged me asking if i were working on a part-time basis during the school holidays. school holidays. dont think they can be called holidays anymore. school break? no way hozey. why is that, in secondary school, i gave the reason as there were too many homework given by the teachers. but now, well, times and things have changed and the reason mostly this time is because well, too many projects given. also, have to be self-disciplined which, you all should know by now, is an area that i am very bad at. many times i made very strict and very good, you can say so, home schedules of my own. in all those times, not once i followed. not even once. see how self-disciplined i am? wait! i am really going off the point here.what was i saying? oh yes. so i went to bathed. Okay i went o check my mobile and was surprised to see an unread message which was on silent mode as i had set my mobile to that mode but somehow i didnt feel the vibration. was it due to the fact that my skin is too thick or that i placed it in a position and on the material where the vibration would be absorbed by those elements and so it would not pass the vibration feeling to me. am i talking crap? sorry. just has been so long since i last blogged and there are like a million things i need to tell you. back to home. bathed, packed, cooked, ate, did my hair, switched on my mp3 player, walked out and was on my way to school. thought i felt vibration and thought there was an unread message...oh here it is. false alarm mina. gome. guess i was right. chicken wants to work during her school break. but if she works where i work it may be tough on her. i have known her for quite some time and i know she hasnt got the experience nor the thing that suits that job. or so i thought. maybe she has changed and grown more matured i do not know. but i cant wait to see that side of her. working alongside her would be fun. i walked quite a slow pace to school. very relaxed enjoying the music on my mp3 player not even thinking about naruto or bleach or peri takamichi. know who she is? shes me. shes a character i designed in my head. no im not going bonkers okay. im not crazy or anything. its just my hidden talent. it will be forever hidden as i dont have enough talent to put it in black and white. too bad. back to the point, met sexy legs on the bridge for the first time i so many days that i had to come late to school coz of my sickening stomach. no idea why but there were a few mornings which i had to stay at home for a little while longer to spend time pushing the shit thats slowly coming out of my ass in the bathroom. sorry for the language, but you know me, it could have been worse you know. it was raingin heavily but i enjoy rainy weather. i espeacially like walking in the rai with an unbrella sheltering my head. i dont like rain to get to my head as i know i have quite sensative scalp. one too much rain sips through it, i will get non-stop headaches and miranes. it would be really bad, the worse was when i had such a huge migrane that i couldnt get up from my bed. my head would be beating so hard. it feels like your heatbeat beating real hard afetr you have just got back from a 2.4km run around the park. we went to class and sat right at the back. i noticed something i would not like my friends to have that against each other. as we entered, we saw two available seats beside that girl from our group, vino i think. i know sexy noticed it too coz i saw her staring at those seats thinking whether or not we should seat there. in the end she followed her heart and went all the way to the last row of seats. i followed her of course, like duh! she sat at the third chair from the end and i sat to her left. i know why she sat there. she was thinking of j-ex. not really his name and not her boyfriend okay. he is our dear friend from socio class. he was friends with sexy way before i was friends with him. get to the point girl. she was thinking j-ex could sit beside me, like you know, booking a seat for him. we call that what? chop seats. hahah. funny term but yea, its kewl. however, when j-ex came he sat beside sexy instead. then they talked a little in chinese which i can roughly guess. think they were talking bout the seat she copped for him but he had to walk the long way to sit beside her. can say he prefer sitting beside her more than me. i just realised that i have been spelling all the sit as seat. like wth. i have typed a very long post but you know, i have not actually, not even close to the main point yet. next post then.

man it has been too damn long since i last posted in my blog. my blog has since then slowly turning into a ghost blog. why you ask? dont you think its like too damn obvious? like what the hell... anyway im in school library using the level 4 opac computers. ususally i dont use the library computers as i find there is no privacy here. too many restrictions and surveillence is too damn high. lol... so im here just finished my socio quiz 2 which i got 7 over 20 questins. like what the hell right. i study so hard then failed my quiz which suppose to be simple compared to my future exam paper. like duh! of course the paper would be tougher it would consist of all the topics while the quiz only contains questions regarding two to three topics each. lol... emily is here with me. today suppose to go for socio then do my socio quiz which is due today at midnight and like i did it already but results aint satisfying. after that suppose to eat luch with yi tian, amelia, j ex (funny name right) and emily. we ate at mac donalds like we did last week. same situation as last week also. went kfc but too packed so went over to mac. that time there we only three of us without j ex so we sat inside. this time inside was far too packed and there were more people so we had to seat outside while its hot but kind of windy so i didnt really mind. ate the mac chicken student meal but changed the drink to iced milo. see im giving you the full details. then amelia, yi tian and j ex went off first. emily and i relax a while then went back to school, looked at a few stals selling sweets, bags and caps. then went inside the library booked two computers for use and so her i am, once again, im torn into pieces cant deny cant pretend, i thought you were the one. like wth.... ya so okay sorry i got caught into the lyrics of that song. hahah. okay just heard a ringtone. very nice one heard "I woke uo it was seven.." it was simple plan song. it was so loud. and you are suppose to silent or better yet switch off your mobiles in the library. library meant to be a quiet place. if too noisy later that guy will say ""this is a library please keep your voice down. its a place for you to read if you want to discuss please do so outside" like wth lor. that time we were at national library and this stupid guy had to scold us. okay maybe im being too mean hes not that stupid but he is still baka. okay i want to watch naruto introductins. be right back. lol.... okay just tryin to make use of all my five senses. lets try have a little fun time by recalling all of them. sense of sight. using. sense of smell, not applicable at the moment. sense of touch, using like duh, sense of hearing, using. sense of...what else is there? taste! not applicable at the moment. so im only able to use three of my five senses. waht about my sixth sense. as if i can see ghosts. lol.... got back my term test results this week. got 7 half over thirty for sssd, got 36 half over fifty for dsag, got 17 half if im not mistaken for wwnk and 27 over thirty for opsy. like i predicted i did better for programming than networking. but problem lies on my interest. thats why it was damn difficult for me to choose whether i wanted programming or networking next semester. it was a very difficult choice for me. very very.... yesterday was disappointed and quite surprised. i told mak i got highest in class for getting 27 over 30 for opsy but before that i told her i choose programming instead of networking next semester. then she ignored the part i was so happy about and asked me stupid questions about what is networking and what is programming. of course she wont know but could she at least congratulate me first? ain heard and talked to me bou tit when stomped up the stairs into my room. shecomforted me and made me happy and laughing. then rawiyah and mak had to come in. then i tried to experimant something without thinking. told her i got 7 half for my sssd over 30 and she had to complain bout that. she went out of the room and i complained to ain. told her when i say bad news mak would replay when i say good news ahe would ignore it and do her own wrk as if nothing happened. she could even say term test is not really that.. she dont have to continue her e=sentence i know what she would say. so sad so disappointed so ot acklowledge by my own mother. shes always not supporting me. lets recall, during primary school, not much, during secondary school i joined band and was happy there until i could literally skip my malay mid year oral exam. it was afetr school and i was slacking int he band room you see. that time i was quite depressed because of the divorce all those and band was my happy room. i had a lot of exchange and sometimes had to go back home late at night and was once part of the committee and had to go home way later so mak always complained bout that. she could even call the office to let the band release me early. due to tht i had to withdraw from my position in the committee. sad. but relieved also as sometimes i had to stay back for nothing and sorts.... so that one was minor problem. then comes the syf. well she complained less than coz i think she had too many problems to take care of. ut due to that there was one night she had the very first and serious arguement with ayah. she just got married then. few weeks or few months not so sure. i was doing my homework downstairs and cried while i listened to them. listenig to mak shouting reminds me of the many days and nights she always argue and fight with pops at 860 when i was little. they ended up in a divorce so that memory like came to me and i was so saddened by that thought. didnt want mak to end up like that anymore... hold that thought you know me so i wont continue this topic next time i post unless i have the mood and i rememeber the topic very well so chao!