Tuesday, August 28, 2007
okay omg y do i find it so difficult to choose a perfect little skin fer my damn blog. n i even tot of making another brand new blog fer meself. meaning tt blog only me n only meself can read. sry no offense but i nd de privacy man.
planned to do revision today but guess not. plan to paste sum photos n maybe a song or 2. but frm wer? ahh...se larr. like tis oso can stress till like mad ba. hvnt eaten anytin since woke up. only like drank half glass water. oh man tummy been grumbling since like few hours ago man.
i wan make another blog fer meself. it wud hv tis blogskin or maybe a better one. i plan to use prince tennis skin but lost my fav one. lazy to find again ba. i wanted de one freaturing fuji n tezuka in it. i wanted eiji n maybe momo oso. dun like de echizen. he suck.
de last time i went work had to do cashiering n got scolded wen i made mistake. die mann die.. really cano tdo cashier mann. suck at it. i better at serving n washing. esp washing. but tink i too slow so tts y dey dun let me do. im so bad at tis. shd i quit?
nvr say die dey say. bluek ar. lotsa rubbish i tell u. even de supervisor break down tt day itself. lotsa bad luck hapen on tt day ba. my fren drop n broke few plates. lucky inside near de kitchen n not outside wer customers can see. if not haiz dunno how sia.
den we receive complain fm wad tis young boy. n i muz emphasize on tt young boy. so young stil can complain. he like dunno nearing 20 or early 20. cant tell ler. im bad at guessing ppls age.
anyway he complain but b4 tt his mum like got call de outlet. den he say wan to tok to boss. like wth tink de boss so free can cum al de way fm korea to s'pore juz to see his bloody face. tt rest damn bad luck sia tt day.
oso got one cust lucky s'porean she like overheard one of me mgrs tok bad bout sumting den tot tok bout her. den not she but her fren hv to like tok to him n camplain again. haiz mann...
ok enuf of tt la. i slacking now. lazy type proper ingrish oso.
oh ya rawi got receive vv gd results fer her p1 exam. she got most 90 above fer eng n mly. her mly damn gd sia. of course its damn easy larr but her to achieve such tingy n no one teaching her at home. no tuition like i had last time. but even i had i still fail ba. hahah.
he so pro mann. so i tot of making a present fer her. or maybe take her out or sumting. muz reward her ma. muz encourage her. these few days she done most gd ting by herself. her attitude improving bit by bit oso.
gd sia she. so priviledged n clever n smart n not ugly. cant say she pretty ma. she ok la. to me she ok but bit too skinny. tink tt cum fm mak genes. hahah. my fat leg cum fm pop genes. ain she follow one of ma aunties. tall n skinny. not follow mak nor pop.
oh no. dun tell me she...te-da-da-da....hah. kidding ppl. she my blood k so no nd worry.
i feel wet down dr. i muz go change soon. den i wan cook maggie n eat ill my tummy wan burst. no larr. i wan eat n watch tv see if got gd show. den see my mood ltr wan study anot. if no mood den too bad fer me la. can say i gv up oledi.
though i confident i wun get F. at least D can. tnx to me goin n actually listening n taking notes fm lectures not like lioness always go dr tok tok. haiz..tt one bad example nvr follow.
not say she bad but sumtimes too much no gd ma. so muz warn her. but how? aiyah she shd noe by now oledi la.
speaking of ma frenz, i wan complain bout dem. heheh. tts y told u canot write here. tts y i nd another blog al to meself one. haiz...but dun nd another blog la. i stick to tis can oledi. de private one is my diary bks wer no one but ain reads. heheh.
i may sound bad but hey tts me. u dun like u chao!
ya i realise i getting more n more selfish nowadays. sumtimes i even realise i treating mak unfairly. poor mak. she so gd to me increase my allowance til $5 a day n still i treat her like trash. sad sia.
i feel sick now. rain rain pretty plz go away. wish can hv tis song blasting n me alone in rm...
ah! hm abrilliant beyong brilliant idea! but it only fer me so dun care u hor. i will change n wash face. den cook n eat n watch tv. den lock meself up in rm n listen to radio since my fucking p3 not working coz of de damn virus in my stupid comp. yea den i do wateva i wan in dr. can dance, sing, etc, etc. but i wan listen to jap song le. how ar? hmm....
hv another idea. burn de song n my cd n play it using de cd player in room. hopefully it still works. den i will listen s much a s i wan to n sing to de tune. n hopefully tis time can memorise al de jap lyrics. hehh. can almost memorise al de sakura biyori song oledi. hahah.
ok tt all fer today or tis whole wk. coz tml got training den exam fer nxt 2 days den work fer nxt 2 days den hol will blog again hopefully. so chao ppl! Love is a great thing
If only you knew..
Published at 2:09 PM
Wednesday, August 15, 2007yestreday thought of blogging but didnt feel like it. then ain needed to go online to do some contest mak asked us to do to win a pair of tickets for a movie preview at cathay cineliesure. is that how u spell it?
oh yeah yesterday i was officially given a new name. i thought it was sila. like silat you know. remember sexy mentioning that. but then they said cla. like what the hell. cla pronounced as sila. and they kept calling me that throughout the day. walao. boi tahan sia.
yea then sometimes penguin like to say yaya papaya which i will definitely acknowledge coz thats the name im proud of and thats the name i live up to. but cla???? no way!!!!
i wont accept that no no no no. what the hell. when i told mak she said better to call me fifa as well you know it represents the fifa world cup but i said they not into it coz its a guy thingy. so she dropped the subject and talked bout her sisters.
family problem goes on forever. my whole life dont know how to get out of the loop of family problems. neither do i know how to get out of the loop of being in financial difficulty. think once you got it you got it. you can never get out of it. sad.
i have been planning forever bout not eating in school and to save a lot till i have enough to bank into my account. then i kept telling myself to save. dont spend. but looks like im not disciplined enough. had to spend more and more everytime i "try" to save.
wow while blogging ha i can type quite fast. but when it comes to writing school work im damn slow sia. why ar? no motivatin? mak just mentioned that yesterday. says her sisters needed motivation and such.
woo...sonce when sexy so good can treat me to a papaya and 2 hashbrowns? cool. later i wan to follow them go itas buy food. or maybe not. just want to go toilet. im tahaning right now. want to finish blogging before i go. many times while blogging in school i always have to end abrubtly coz lesson on or whatever shit.
okay so i going to end now. going toilet. quite urgent. heheh. bubyez. dont miss me. this one i kapo from lioness. her version of saying goodbye. then my reply would always be no i wont. hahah.
oklah bubye. Love is a great thing
If only you knew..
Published at 2:12 PM
Monday, August 13, 2007fuck my thumbdrive! fuck my computer! fuck the printer! fuck the microsoft word!
like so WHAT THE HELL!!!! its so frustrating!!!!! i hate it DAMN IT!!!!
trying to release some of my stress here. when i tried for the final and the last time that i will ever try in my whole entire lifetime using my stupid thumbdrive with this stupid computer trying to print my stupid word document with this stupid printer.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
thats so much better. fuck sia! everything is so not according to my wishes. what i realised my msn getting slower than ever when im typing. the fucking word document always giving me problems and having such a hard time saving any work i have into this computer as it takes such a damn long time to save. like more than a minute. okay im exagerating but hey! must i count for you the number of seconds it takes exactly to save my work inside this fucking computer?
work and school with all the presentation and projects and thinking of the exams and waiting and waiting for my first salary to come so i buy that fucking AAA battery for my damn mp3 whick dont have the songs that i wanted especially those chinese songs coz my damn computer aint allowing me to reformat the chinese songs lionessgave me to save into my mp3. WHAT THE FUCK!!!!
fuck!!! i want sexy to help me print but how am i suppose to pass her my work if i cant even open and edit that DAMN THING!!!!! this is so frustrating you know. and im typing way too fast for myself to read what i have written myself. just trying to get it all out of me asap.
wish i could shout but two problems will then arise. first my jaw has been hurting for like many months already. it subsided for some time but came back eventually. FUCK!!!!
another thing is its night time so i cant shout so loud. and im living in an nvironment where there are people everywere so i cant just do anything whenever i want. i can but it must not affect the others. so if i shout i would wake the neighbours and the babies or whatever will be disturbed. and im in singapore so nowhere to go. you know like other places you can just drive out miles away to the big fields and then shout as loud as you want and no one will hear you.
wish i could go there right now. i just want to shout. want to scream. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
and so there goes the one solution. giving my piece to sexy so she can print for me. alright now calm down. i will give my thumb and the damn computer one more try. one more chance. see how paitient i am? okay here goes...
FUCKING ASSHOLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!
it aint working. as i was deleting the pictures so can give sexy only the text, it had to close and gave that same old fucking excuse. what microsoft word has to close due to some problems it encountered and some shit. WHAT THE HELL sia!!!!!!!!
omg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! finally i can get it to work a little.i finally could send sexy my info so she can print and give me tomorrow. thank goodness. Love is a great thing
If only you knew..
Published at 8:53 PM
Friday, August 10, 2007wednesday totally forgot to go for samba. played game and watched some anime most of the time at home. slept before midnight. thursday public holiday. national day you know. woke up rather late. was dreaming, thinking and playing with my imagination. some dirty stuff dont want tell you.
went down ate quite heavy breakfast with mak. mak angry at ayah these few days but seems like some anger cleared yesterday night. did some work or did i play games and sang some songs? after that went out with mak to meet mak bongsu and got back my HP book from her at the roadside beside the mrt station.
took bus to giant and ate at food stores there. went into giant bought my hair moisturizer and detol soap and some other stuff. then went ikea and spent lots of hours there until my leg pain from walking and standing around to much.
ayah called and mak had to go off to see him to watch fireworks. said he only had two tickets for him and mak to go on date. after marriage still got date? i envy them, although very old already. seriously, he's like near fifty years old and mak is already at the age where she cant give birth anymore.
mak bongsu and me went shopping at tampines mall and century square. i bought mascara and she bought some base make-up and two pair of shoes. i was about to buy also and a belt for my formal pants but thought i neede the money for when i go out with my friends so only bought that mascara.
went to new york pizza to eat dinner. both couldnt finish the huge slice of pizza and i brought wiht me. while eating mak called and said rawiyah, ain and bik ida wanted to go out meet them so asked me to meet them first at mrt.
so i say saiyonara to mak bongsu and met them at mrt. sad need top up all their cards there. spent $20 just topping up their cards. you know 2 children cards $ 5 each and an adult card $10. then i had to top up mine too so another $10 gone. sad money gone just like that.
got to go saiyonara.
Love is a great thing
If only you knew..
Published at 3:11 PM
Monday, August 06, 2007heya people. saturday went to school lt45 i still remember hahah. looks like my memory is improving? hopefully. hehee. went there to take my sociology common test. paper was okay. think my time management too off as guess i spent too much time on the first two sections and didnt have enough time to finish the last two questions.
anyway i couldnt recall as much as i expected myself to when i see the questions. like, you know when you see something it reminds you of something else and that kind of reminding is what i depended on during the paper. like when i just went inside the lt i cant remember a thing but when i read a question on the paper many concepts and theories i will recall.
however, guess i didnt revise enough or i didnt take the revision very seriously so i cant remember most of the terms needed to complete the paper. so total two things that i did wrong so in the end the result was that i couldnt finish the paper. so sad sia.
after that went to mac to eat lunch with sexy and jx. ate my usuall fish student meal as thats like the cheapest there, although not so cheap after all. i prefer kfc if you give me choice of lunch between kfc and mac. i feel the kfc food much more satisfying and cheaper in some sense. heheh.
but of course i would really love to eat at bbq chicken where i work provided the food they give me for free under the ten bucks budget.
after that took bus from the nearer bus stop to go to tampines interchange. sexy and jx took their busses and left me to take the train to somerset where i rushed into cineleasure, changed into my uniform and began working. work, work, work until aound the closing time. at eleven i went back, reaching home around one am. late right? i know. so tired.
tepuchi must go do school work. bubuyz Love is a great thing
If only you knew..
Published at 8:31 AM
Thursday, August 02, 2007ooh....pearl sleeping soundly beside me. on the drawer table beside me that is. if only she's more friendly like spickey last time. everytime i come home spickey would purr and come meowing at me. he was so adorable and kawaii!!
this pearl ar..haiz...dont know what to say. so fierce. like lioness. they could be best friends. hahah.
nak cakap tentang ape terjadi padaku tadi kat skolah. teruk seh kawan kawan ku. konon la kawan. bukan macam kawan lagi. geram seh. sangat benci. tak lah. tak baik benci orang. tu la orang orang cina yang ku slalu bergaul waktu skolah tu.
ni ku cuma boleh bilang si banan, pretty dan penguin je. mungkin sexy pun boleh bilang ah. kerna ku rasa dier tu trustworthy. ku suka kan dier tu. tapi kadang kadang dier tu yang paling bising. mulut dier bile ketawa sangat besar. terlalu besar ku rasa boleh masukkan tangan ku kat dalam mulutnye tu. hahah.
aku tak nak minta maaf pade dorang tu. ish betul buat hati ku ni..grr......tak boleh terkata.
tu ni ku tau lah dorang tu tak sukakan kawan yang slalu pakai merah jambu tu tapi tak payahlah over sangat. macam bile dier cakap benda dorang tak nak reply. tapi cuba u cakap benda yang sama, dorang akan reply tau. just because dier yang cakap dan dorang slalu ingatkan kalao reply nanti dier kept going on and on dorang ignore dier.
skali skala boleh lah tapi ni setiap kali dier nak berbual pada korang mesti korang tu tutup hati korang pade dier. as in forgive and forget you know. a little more paitience can come a long way. tau tak bodoh bahlul.
kan ku dah sumpah dorang sampai gitu. ku tak nak cakap sorry. dorang tak kan buat yang baik. bukan tu je tau, dorang macam, ah mungkin ni perasaan ku sendiri tak kena mengena dengan dorang. tapi betul lah ku rasa dorang tu memang racist.
dulu bile orang hindu mula mula datang kelas kite dorang selalu ketawakan mereke. tau lah bau dorang korang tak boleh tahan tapi janganlah bile dorang kat bilik same. tak boleh ke tunggu sampai dorang 5 miles away ke pe.
tapi waktu tu pun aku terikut ikut. tak baik sih kite semua. abis lagi satu, slalu dalam lecture yang si sayang ku pun selalu berbual. kononlah tengan berkenalan dengan orang bersebelahannye tu. tu lah excuse dier tu. bising tau. aku slalu ni bertahan je. kan ku kate paitience. tapi skarang dah terlalu lama perasaan tu terpendam dalam hatiku. tak boleh tahan lagi.
jadi tu sebeb ku decide nak complain pade blog ku ni. i seek pretty and banana corporation. tolonglah jangan translate sesuatu pun pada dorang. sesiapa pun uang faham pe ku cakapkan dalam post ni tolonglah jangan bilang sesiapapun yang bukan melayu.
okaylah ku rasa tu cukup untuk kali ni. next time post nak complain pasal benda lain pulak. chao people! saiyonara! Love is a great thing
If only you knew..
Published at 8:39 PM