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Wednesday, August 27, 2008
i cried myself to slp last nite.
i met pepper n lioness @ bugis junction near mac dr. dey were vv cheerful n cheered me a little seeing dem tt way. so long nvr see pepper n her face is getting bad a gain . plus tis time add to de puffiness. nyahahah. funny sia.
we went pastamania i ate spicy chicken wif passionfruit soda, lioness ate aglio olio wif grn apple soda, n pepper ate chicken bologese. however u spell it ar. den we went round look at clothes i went toilet a while. den i wanted to go bugis street so we head dr while pepper head to her bus stop.
dr we look round n lioness cudnt resist any temptation so we went POSB near cheers n i withdrew 150 bucks. we went back to de shops but i find de clothes not as nice as de ones on 2nd floor.
we went up n look ard. de 1st shop we went into was jeans shop n i bought a grey pair. size 25. my size. i find it a little tite but de person say it will losen wen i wear it long. cost me 28 bucks. ouch.
in future i will get more of tt strechable n vv comfy type. maybe 1 pair 1 mth. hmm. addin tt to my expenses. not bad. not bad at all.
den we went straight to de usual shop lioness normally buys lotsa clothes fer like 80 to 100 bucks. how i noe. i always follow her dr. k la not always. most of de time. i like de clothes dr. really like. n de person dr vv nice. plus shes pregnant. n i told ting2 yest pregnant women awes me. means dey r awesome. dey fascinate me. i like pregnant women. 1 day i will be 1 of dem. nyahahah. tink too much la u all.
anyway, lioness bought dunno how many blouses tt costs my 80 bucks total. yea i hvnt told u y im payin it all. lioness broke de den still wan buy clothes. she crasy i noe. i find her nuts oso. hahah.
den i bought a pair of shoes n 2 blouse frm dr. 1 fer 8 and de other fer 20 bucks. nyahahah. plus de more ex one is new arrival. ya new since last mth. but its so nice la. hahah. k i admit. wenever im wif lioness, i beacome shopping freak while shes de shopaholic. ish ish ish.
btw yest she carries tis hude read plastis werever we went. inside full of clothes de gang except me bought online. it was like a lot la. can open shop oledi liao.
anyway, yea de shoes i bouhgt white n i really like it. its only 10 bucks. wow. ok so i spent see 28 + 10 + 8 + 20 = 66 bucks. correct me if im wrong. lioness 80. so 80 + 66 = 146. like wow.
in my pretty pink wallet left 4 la n i juz spent it tis morn wen i bought my breakfast n lunch. branch.
ya n last nite i came hm late quickle place my stuff at rite place wer i can pack easy n bring here. n went up put plastic (all i bought in 1 plastic) beside bed. mak was inside so i pretend tt was nth inside. she nvr bother to ask oso. tink she noe tt i noe tt she noes. lol.
i kiss her gdnite, bathe n lie on bed. still got time but nvr pray. too tired. wad a sin.
while i lay on my bed i thought of the things i did that day. going into the office looking shabby due to tiredness and exhaustion, only going to the canteen at the back of the building to find the place too crowded but not wanting to come back empty handed so bought sandwich from the drink stall, buying fries from mac donalds after work when i could not take the hunger. riding the bus with siqi and farhana and saw yati...
...riding the too full train that squeezes me to the corner but with the help of a nice lady i was able to sqeeze myself out of the train when it reaches bugis. while thinking of all these things, i also thought of my family and our terrible horrible past. thought of my religion and my beloved cousins. i also thought of how strong Ting Ting is and how weak i am...
...i sobbed at that thought. i then tried to think of other things, other happy things. i called God's name a couple of time, thinking that it would help calm me down...
...however, it made me cry even more. this time, i could not stop the tears that are accumulating in my eyes and pouring down the sides of me face. I felt weak and alone. I thought of the miserable hours i spent on lunch, going to mac donalds buying take away food and eating on the third floor all by my lonesome. i thought of reasons why there was a need to have so much office politics. its very very saddening...
...i could not reset my mind to think of any happy moments. if a dementor were there, my life would be sucked out in no time at all. **chuckles**...
...i kept thinking of the past, my family, our past. the torturous, most evilest, most dreadful past i ever encountered. i never wanted and never thought that history would repeat itself. when i first saw mak and ayah argue for the first time, i cried like a baby because seeing them reminede me of the days mak and pops fight with each other...
it was a terrible feeling that night. i tried so hard to think of ways to stop myself from crying but the tears just wont stop...
thats all for now :)
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this pict is when ting2 went off wrk early to see FIR concert. i looked weird i noe...sry fer not being photogenic ar ... however u spell it ...
im here to complain ...
fri time flew vv slow ... sat went to wrk @ bbq ... sun out wif pops while he hantar me to wrk den i realized i had morn shift not aft ... like a wk back sir sim called me n said i was to wrk sat 5-11 n sun 3-11 ... i believed him ... den i check my hp before goin out n saw 2 missed calls fm bbq ... ops ... guilt went into my veins n flowed through my whole body .. oooo ... tt is a vv nasty feeling ...
but as usual i dun tell ppl how i feel normally n kept quiet ... den sir sim said its over n put me 3-10 ... but wen 10 came he extended me till 10.30 ... tts wad he likes to do normally ... extend ppl ... but i stayed till 11 waited fer de rest coz i dun like travelling alone at nite la ...
sir sim took de bus 1st n de rest (me, hninn, may) took 3 but saw him @ his 2nd bus stop ... "karma", may says ... tts rite ...who ask him not wait fer us ... nyahahah ... *evil laugh* ...
mon came n i was so damn tired ... had to literally force my whole self out of bed n into washrm ... dr i din even dare to wash my hair ... it was too freakin cold man ... u wan me die freezing ar ...
n tt mon which was yest ... was my bad hairday ... n comes today ... yest nite watch mly series wif ain n rawiyah ... last part cry wan cry like mad but tt idiot ain kept tokin bout taufik song being in de rite time ... tt spoils it all ...
anyway coz of tt i woke up with heavy body tis morn n slept all de way in de train n bus without listenin to music ... u noe i cant survive without listenin to music ... nomatter its heavy rain or hot sunny weather ... unless i hv huge headache n de music makes it worse ... but tis morn woah so tired ar til dun even hv enuf energy to pluck in my earpiece ... terrible ...
yea n i wan complain bout tis stupid place ... tis place tis nus tis smartcard counter tis stupid office ... de ppl @ de counter n 1st floor here r super kewl ... dey nice ppl ... ppl up dr tts makin me go nuts ... 2nd floor to be more specific ... dey like ... ya la maybe dey were born devils so u cant blame dem ... wait did i say 1st floor? not de entire floor ...
mainly i dun like all de ppl in de dept im in ... except ting2 n maybe farhana n maybe rose ... i say maybe hor ... but ting2 is a definite i like her ... maybe sumtime she can be irritatin oso la ... but she got limit ... i only dun like her touchin my head wen shes teachin me ...
speakin of which i got scolded by her yest ... coz i forgot to move staff photo scanning requests fm pending comfirmation to pending processing ...
anyway, yea i kept eatin alone ... i feel like if i can tahan till 2 or maybe 3 today ... i go arts eat lunch ... if i cant tahan den i go mac ... as usual ...
sobx T_T ... i sumtime ar really feels like tearing ... not in ofc but @ hm n in public ... seriously i can go depress if de situation here gets any worse ... plus lately it has gone worse ... baka penguin aint tokin to me ... i nvr see yanlin fer so long ... tt itme i went out wif lioness it was so fun la ...
tt time i felt ... woah ... gd man ... i felt gd .. its like finally i can be myself .. finaly ...finaly ...
but here i am again doin de same old routine ... i hate tis ... invr wanna wrk office ... not admin ... NOT NUS or NCS ... i hate tis 2 most in de whole world .. worse den tt time i hated ain n mak n bik nur ... okok i goto do wrk ..bb ... :(
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